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Deanna Lydia

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About Deanna Lydia

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  • Birthday December 1

Personal Information

  • Gender
    straight/bi male (and sometimes sissy)
  • Occupation
    engineer
  • Age
    57
  • Location
    Midwest
  • About Me
    I love cross-dressing, and obviously if I'm part of this forum, I love peeing in my pants and being peed on (and eventually, I get to dress up in silk lingerie as a reward for being naughty). For me it's all about feeling humiliated (privately, indoors only) and I'm also very into golden showers, but I've never had one - except from a "squirty peter". I'm in the closet with the pee fantasies (until I find someone who is also into it, or very understanding), but many girlfriends have dressed me up. I'm a geek/nerd, very tech-oriented, I play keyboards, love animals and help with their rescue when needed.

Pee Profile

  • Favourite Thing About Pee
    wetting myself, being peed on, (private) humiliation/submission, forced cross-dressing, taboo
  • Hottest Pee Experience
    I'm peeing in my pants right now (wearing panties, plastic panties over them) and jeans... and now looking to talk to others who like the same. I think the plastic panties make it a LOT more fun, as they hold a lot of pee and let me soak in it (and they slosh when I walk around, but they will drip down my legs, so I wear jeans over them to absorb it and I can wear it.

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  1. Ohio, USA. Nice to see other folks from US here - most seem to be from UK so it's late night for them when it's early evening for me.
  2. This is the epitome of being just inside the door while my body said "I don't care, I have to go now" - and since I could never use a public toilet, I ALWAYS got home basically desperate. The only thing I can add is, sometimes I made sure by drinking more water or coffee on the way hone, so that I really couldn't hold it. That is what I love the most about when I wet my pants.
  3. Welcome!!! You will feel very comfortable with the folks in this forum. We don't judge, and we all have our own unique preferences, but you will never feel like people reject you because of what you like - we all like pee in one form or another, or we wouldn't be here, so feel free to loosen up a little and tell us about yourself. 🙂
  4. Wow those are some cruel people you were dealing with. It makes me wonder, though, just how bad THEIR fetishes were that they had to make themselves feel better by giving you a hard time. Usually when someone goes as far as they did, it's because they're diverting attention away from themselves and whatever they are hiding. I keep my fetishes secret (well, I told several girlfriends about the dressing, and one about the pee, and she was thankful I shared it with her but we didn't get far into exploring that one - tho she took great pleasure in dressing me up)., I'm pretty sure there ar
  5. Yea, lol, I love the way it feels when it runs down my legs, or if I'm sitting in it, the way it pools. Jeans are nice to just wear it. :)
  6. I would do the exact same thing. But keep in mind, her pee has her hormones. 🙂 I am definitely with you on being on the receiving end of pee play.
  7. You are such good company, my fellow shameful fetishist. Not to worry, you are among understanding friends. One thing that helped me over my own personal shame was, when I realized how many different fetishes there were and how I considered them outrageous only because they were so much more intense and "different" (and some of them not that harmless, to say the least) - peeing is such a mainSTREAM thing to be into, and so many people, if properly introduced, can enjoy it. And I know, there are people out there who won't admit it, but they like it - even if just a drop here and a drop
  8. Oh wow, I had a chance to answer this question and I still think you put it in the best words (except our difference in the shame). Nice and concise. But... What would life be like (as you said, "simpler") without a nice harmless fetish? I've always found that it's the one place I can go in my mind (and wherever else) where I can do anything I want - alone or with someone else - and I think everyone here, like me, is far more complicated and can't just be that "simpler". I hated that my fetishes were there (and couldn't do anything about them) - I came to realize that they are par
  9. There are so many emoji's out there right now, and I'm never sure what any of them mean besides the basics from long ago. Emoji's aren't the only way to express your feelings, or what you want to offer someone else, and I've found that something like "{{hugs}}" or whatever - that's totally clear to me. Even with a limited selection of emoji's (or an infinite way of trying to say something to someone else) - whatever emoji you choose - words will go so much farther. I'd rather read someone's words (emoji's appreciated since I know someone reacted) - but words (remember those old-fash
  10. When you work out and your muscles get bigger, all that extra size is scar tissue - that's what makes you stronger. I think emotional pain is one of the best workouts for the mind (as unpleasant as it is) because it forces you to come to terms with something, or be in pain until you can redefine it. You're in (urine?) the right community to get support and help with avoiding some of those mines, and helping provide support to offset the pain. No one is without that darkness and feeling of hopelessness - some deal with it, or hide it, better than others, but everyone has it - it's always
  11. Thanks, glad you liked them. 🙂 After the 4 beers and lots of water (just the other night), I held it in for another couple hours, wondering why I wasn't yet bursting. Once I let loose (sitting on the couch, and trying to make sure the couch doesn't get wet - not always successful at that), I sat in it for a while, knowing I wasn't done and I'd have to pee more, so... why bother changing (unless, of course, I wanted to be wearing dry pants and see them get wet). For the other pics, I held it as long as I could - especially knowing I wanted to pee my pants and take pics of it. Most
  12. Even in my mid-fifties (I no longer wake up with something that is armor-piercing)... A day without an orgasm just isn't a proper day. I can't fall asleep unless I get off first. On my worst days ever (like, who masturbates while in incredible pain, or during mourning, or any other time where you really want to say to yourself "really, even today???" - well, yea!!! If I can't, the pain of the day will stay with me. It's such an easy way to relieve tension, explore yourself, and best of all - find new ways of understanding what you like. I masturbate EVERY day, at least once, and
  13. I mean, besides those walks I would take at night into the woods, knowing I wouldn't run into anyone. Still awake at 7:30AM, so I invented a reason to go to the store down the street. On the way back I pushed as hard as I could, and the warm wet spot soaked into my pants, and down my balls (sitting in the driver's seat). That's new. Took the long wat through the apartment parking lot and push more, and made sure I was nice and wet, and I could have to hide myself if I saw anyone. That's new. Pouring rain outside, so just a tiny bit of safety, but I still have to walk to my apa
  14. I developed a really strong bladder since ever since I can remember, I can't share a public toilet (men's room, urinals, whatever) so back then, it was just too easy to pee my pants when I wanted to. The most embarrassing place I ever peed my pants is pretty sublime compared to other stories - I had just got home from a long commute and I had to pee so bad that my seatbelt was torturing me. I got to the front door of the apartment building, and got all the way to my front door, and as I fiddled with my keys... two things happened: one - I couldn't hold it any longer two - that
  15. Here's an idea... and I have to admit I do this sometimes when I know I'm going to be around others soon enough - Take off your pants, sit on the toilet and pee in your underpants (or panties, or whatever you like). Stay there long enough so it dries out enough that when you put your pants back on, it won't soak through and you won't have to be worried about others seeing what you did. The only clue - there's a bit of a scent to it - no one will think much of it, but you'll know and it will be your secret in the company of others. Another idea (and I've done this) - take off your s
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