Raven - Not sure whether you'd call it luck, fate, whatever that I happened to log on nine minutes after your post and the 'recent posts' happened to be the first thing I saw. Whatever, there's a few things I can't leave unsaid.
Firstly a big thank you and a hug for your honesty. There's a large number of people on this forum who care about you far more than is logical for someone we've never met, far more than you realise and probably far more than any popular social channel. We don't just care because of what you post, we (on the whole) don't have expectations or criticisms of what you post - we're just happy that you're here and that you do contribute (both in posting and in responding to others' posts).
It's not really relevant to compare others' content with your own - we all know you're not going to post selfies or body parts. That's a given and accepted. Neither do I, nor most others. Some do and we appreciate them, many don't and we appreciate them just as much. Most of what you post is incredible - personally your 'slits' and 'sexy nudes' threads are one of the first places I look, eagerly hoping for new content.
So Raven, what I'm rambling on trying to say is there is no mould that you have to fit in here - we love you for who you are, whether you're quietly sitting online observing and reacting to posts, whether you're sharing your experiences (which are by no means lame) or whether you're sharing internet finds with us. You are valued. Any hobby or pastime can easily turn from a thing of love to being a chore. There's definitely no harm in taking time out now and then for as long as you need.
As far as the rest of life goes, it sounds like it's been a peak of stress with college, finals, thoughts for the future and all that going on. There's nothing wrong with having a meltdown every now and then, the body and mind can only take so much. People around you possibly won't know how to deal with it, or possibly will think it's just 'for attention' - which anyone who's dealt with depression knows couldn't be further from the truth. When it seems like everyone takes a step back, it's not because they don't care - it's that they don't realise how much you need the care. That and we are crap at flitting from one thing to the next without multitasking ourselves to given Raven a call and check she's ok.
I'm glad to hear you are feeling a little better - it will be a long road, but there are lots of people WHO DO CARE and want to be there. Feel free to DM me if you want to chat, whether it is random crap or something particular. As you know I'm online usually at least once most days, so it won't be an instant response, but if it helps....
Talking of help - I know you love The Beatles... go and get some Beatles playing, force yourself to sing along. It is a long and winding road, but you will get by with a little help from your friends.