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Hi  my names is sarah i just wanted to vent about something i dont really know how to say this even lol but basicaly   im 24 and les i have this thing im into wich makes me feel like a freak.   I feel horrible about it. nothing illegal and i dont want any sort of sexchat or so. I woulf  want to hear another womans perspective on it though.  Its a very odd thing and i feel like a freak over it.  so just want another girls  thoughts on it because it makes me feel like a weirdo,   i find it hot when other girls completely snap.  I'l explain how it all started. I havent always had these feelings.  It started when i saw   a video of a woman having a complete meltdown in a store when her card got declined.        her meltdown     is problaby the worst   anyone has had tbh.    I'l give some examples of stuff she did just so you get an idea how extreme it was.  The video started right after her card got declined.  She was screaming top of her lounges, i've never heard  anyone scream so loud.   And i mean LOUD.  She wasnt holding back.   ( wich i found faschinating/exciting seeing a grown woman just completely unleash in public  with no limits)  Her own  kids and others cried   but she didnt seem to give a fuck.    She was screaming  hystericaly.   With them terrified.  ( i did kind of find that primal sounding screaming almost excuting in a way because sure it wasnt a " nice" sound  but she looked so angry and relieved at the same time.  Like when the cashier first told her that she couldnt give her the stuff she screamed give me my fucking item,  etc and as loud and angrty as it was i could like hear the relief in her voice.   She just went on and on.      Like it was so clear that she was beyond anything )  She smashed/threw   stuff full force.  And i mean with FORCE.   She threw/broke anything near her.             Some stuff even hit others.   Or crashed into other objects.       She  flipped shelves,  kicked things,  as hard as she could ( i'd think by the looks of it)   (she destroyed everything.  But the way she did it  was like beyond just rage. It was primal almost  Its hard to explain.  But for example at once point she threw a huge glas thing and just by the force of her throw and how loud it shattered you could tell the force.)       ( i just liked the primal way she  destroyed things.   And how she did it no matter what it was. I mean she even kicked a stroller at one point.     Just the extremety of it all was exciting/ made me curious how someone can even get to that point. )  She  Screamed in the cashiers face.  stuff like  " give me my fucking item" " i dont give a fùck cùnt give it to me or i'l kill you"  " give it to me whore"    " i'l break your neck"   while she was trying to explain that her card got declined,  wich only made her scream/threaten more and break more stuff.    The cashier was a young girl around 18 or so i would guess.  She was even sobbing  trying to explain that it was declined.   but she kept screaming how she didnt give a fuck, give me my godamn items bitch or i'l kill you etc.  ( here i was just shocked kind of seeing a middled aged woman doing that to someone so young. Like a innocent poor girl whos even sobbing,     the whole taboo of it and how " unforgivable" it was and the fact she didnt give a fuck made it somehow exciting, because it was clearly beyond just some mean angry lady this was different ) She also ripped stuff of the counter,   slammed it,  kicked a shoping cart,  and more. ( wich i did find hot just seeing how much she was releasing and the fact that she could even kill someone. That she was capable of anything i guess im amazed kind of by it i've never seen anything close to her before.    I guess im both curious to how anyone could get to that level.  And also just  find. exciting in a way seeing that massive release)    It looked  primal  its hard to explain but. for example when she kicked the cart flipping it over, sending items flying while at the same time screaming like " give me my fucking item"  it was beyond just a  "tantrum"       ( Its hard for me to explain but i find it  sort of faschinating how its even possible for anyone to snap that badly.   i've never seen anyone snap like that before So it  woke an interest in me about this. ) ( sometimes she even  looked/sounded relieved at the same time as she was going on a rampage.   i did find those moments sort of hot/interesting.   Even when screaming horrible things her voice kinda sounded relieved at the same time.   I did hear her sigh with relief  a few times when destroying stuff or when she was screaming could tell by the body posture/face  it felt good.  ) ( i do find that hot but also interesting how it could feel that good for her?)      she  just kept going on and on at that cashier insulting, threatening screaming at her.       Like just on and on like an explosion like you could tell she was unleashing everything on her.  And anything around. For example she  screamed almost primaly.. like " you worthless bitch give me my fucking item, whore,  give me my fucking item retarded bitch or i'l fucking kill you cunt,   worthless fuck,  bitch"  etc like she just wouldnt stop it wasnt like a normal cursing/threats or insults. You could tell she was like just unleashing the whole world on her kind of.     She even pulled the cashiers hair at one point like real hard screaming she would bash her stupifd fucking skull in.  She whined it clearly hurt she was pulling so hard.  She even slaped her and more. And the way she just wouldnt stop it was like seeing an extreme mix of rage/relief and everything else she had carried at once.   The cashier was  a teen i think mabye 18 the woman was in her  30-40s mabye. Kids were crying too and she even attacked one for crying she screamed like shut the fuck, stop fucking crying etc, shut your godam noouth and hit her too.  Threatened to kill and  more.   she even kneed one of her own kids  screaming she would rip its head of it it didnt shut its " retarded litle mouth"     (I dont get turned on by that no but sort of just how the way she just kept kicking/hiting and screaming and how she said things sounded like she was so " DONE"  its hard to explain but it didnt sound " normal" ) Just completely out of control.      Others didnt even dare to do anything.  People just starred.   ( i did find that hot in a way how one woman can get to the point where a whole store is too terified to act even other moms who were present.    How everyone got so scared of her.    it was quite hot seeing her smash things, scream  and sigh in relief and you could just tell how good it felt.  While people just starred and she didnt even care.) Anyway that woman was interwieved later. she said  that  she had never even raised her voice before.   Never used drugs no diagnosis etc.  but she had gone trough so much her whole life.   since day one from birth each day had been a nightmare.  It was a bunch of stuff  basicaly every bad thing one can go trough was there  its too many things to even count up. She explained that she had  held it for decades And just botled it all up her whole  life.   No matter how far beyond her own breakpoint she was pushed. And tried keeping it togheter even though everything kept going against her and she was enduring decades of daily torment.  So it was just  the final straw when her card declined then  she completely snaped.  she  said  that it felt so relieving  and that she had never felt so much relief.   and that it felt so good to finally get it out. She   talked about how she  never felt so relieved it was bliss etc ( it was then that i truly started finding it hot so im sure i didnt imagine the sighs either then)     And i just found that idk hot i guess.  how she was such a kind, sweet woman that hadnt ever even raised her voice.    how she had been trough so much.   more and worse  things  than anyone.      how she had  botled it up for decades her entire life.   Most couldnt even do half of that.  (I guess i that kinda excites/faschinates just how much and long she held it.  Like at the point where most  had exploded long ago) (And then how she finally completely snaped in the store.   I found that hot because that wasnt just some angry woman i have never seen or heard anything like that but it was faschinating/exciting more so after i knew how relieved she felt. seeing decades of daily stuff finally explode was hot kind of) ( it was faschinating  how this kind sweet woman went so out of control more than even a " normal aggressive" one ever would. )     (    also liked how she just unleashed everything and went completely " crazy".     How loud she screamed, the force she destroyed with, the threats, violence   it was all so extreme.       And on top of that   i also found it hot how she didnt give a fuck about anyone or anything.    Like not even her own kids and it was even relieving to her.)   (Im kinda    curious how one gets to that point even and how it actualy feels etc i do wish i could talk to someone whos snaped like that im genualy curious. ) ( also exciting hat she was capable of anything.  Just seeing her completely snap.     Its not arousing per se but exciting somehow.  How she snaped that badly. (  i Also  like  the taboo of a grown woman doing that especially in public.       And since she was  middle aged and the cashier just a teen it gets even more taboo.     Its so " wrong/horrible" especially since shes middle aged and those so young.   Shes a growm woman   a mother even. completely melting down in a store, destroying stuff, threatening innocents, hurting them   making  her own kids cry  even  ( i think it was hers)  and shes not giving a fuck and ofc the rest she did.  And even " worse"  how she " enjoyed" it because of the relief. ) (What i meant was that the " worse" she did the " hoter" sort of.    And faschinating.   Also its  interesting faschinating like how a grown woman a mom even could be pushed that far. especially such a kind one.  I dont like violence or abuse but this was beyond  that i feel like)    ( I mean not even a " mean" one would act like that nor a karen having a " fit"  like how could this kind mom then be pushed so far. And the fact that it felt good for her even.  I guess im amazed kind of how she could actualy get to that point. And to the point of even sighing with relief.) ( i  like how extremely relieving it felt for her  too how it felt so good to finally let it out.    Her sighs of relief  was what really got me into it.  ) (The  relief on her  face/body was visible at times  even though she was completely livid.  For example at one point she had her back kinda arched, and you could just see relief on her body and face even though she was screaming, cursing and theeatening at the same time.   Its hard to explain it honestly.    There are many more examples and things she did but tbh  it lasted so long and so much happened that i dont even wanna try writing  it all down. (Also a plus  she was not on any drugs, no diagnosis either.   So it was actually genuine.   ts nothing i want to do myself though.   i just like when other women do it.) I know its bad of me and im ashamed of it but yeah.. what do you think about it?  Like am i a freak or am i just overthinking?    Can i  please ask something? So sorry if rude or uncomfortable/too personal but can i ask have you ever like completely snapped like that? I dont ask for any sexual gain or for me to get of to.  Reason i ask  is  because i want to know what a girl that has experience  would think of me liking it.   I would want to hear their wiev on that.   I think it would  help hearing the wiev of one with personal experience.  And if i could talk to someone directly and hear their story mabye i could analyze myself a bit to see what i actually like and exactly why,  And also mabye i could get to ask  some questions so i could understand the snap better too.   i never talked to another girl that has.  And im genualy interested now. I would just like to understand it better and see their pov mabye just get knowledge i supose.   And  if i  heard her story directly.  mabye it could help me see and get a better understanding of everything. And im genualy curious about it andninterested But of course i respect your boundaries  so its up to you❤️  please tell me if its too much. and your thoughts on this

I did!! And loved it! Windows down radio turned up listening to my favorite music!!   

I’ve pissed on many a wheel well and tires in parking garages. I love pissing between cars. 

no. i wasn't fully nude. but i also didn't make any attempt to hide the fact that i wasn't fully dressed either. and yes, i'm certain those guys knew as much too. 🤭

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