Member Updates SPYWAREONYA

[spywareonya 37,969]

Hi people of the forum

I have been absent for a while, struggling with personal problems of such a size that they prevented me from logging in

When I finally solved them, Pandemia broke out forcing me to 12 hours-per-day shifts, turning me into a trashed and exhausted thing.

I finally got my work back and here I am again

 

But there is one thing I also need to make you understand

I am here on this forum for a very precise reason

 

I am convinced that lack of emotional flow is the reason which turned the world into a cold place where people only have materialism to comfort themselves with

I hate all of this

I love piss but more than anything I love my own philosophical struggle against human indifference

 

In the last weeks of my presence here last year, people were ignoring me, and this is something I cannot accept

Nobody, beside my loyalists, were checking my contributions, and during my absence, almost nobody checked my previous stuff

I have posted more 12000 posts and ONE HUNDRED pics of me on this forum, and I sincerely cannot accept for them to be forgotten in a week after it took three days to shoot said photobook, just because new threads about absolutely less-personal things pop up

 

 

This has nothing to do with vanity and if I fail to make you all understand this, I will leave again and this time forever.

What I gave to the forum, was something I poured my very soul into.

I want for people to interact with it.

Reply and give likes. It is so easy, that doing elsewhere demonstrates either uninterest or atrocious avarice of gratitude.

 

This wasn't the reason why I left. I left for much darker reasons. But it can be important about me being back.

 

Something so personal makes people emotionally vulnerable.

I need more feedback.

More love.

Soon I will find a way to make my galleries more visible but I do not wanna bash them into your faces, the point is that I want people to understand that I consider what I posted worthy of being looked for, even if they aren't that visible

 

 

Prove me you love me. And I will give you more than I ever did.

I love you all. Check some of my 12000+ posts to understand me and understand also that I am absolutely sincere in telling you all that I really love you.

I love you so much that I cannot ignore wether you act toward me in a way that makes me happy, or you don't

I want my life to become part of you through sharing pics, videos, and personal reflections

I need what is inside of you, your light, make me bathe in it, I live to make people understand the power of their love, but really, this is no silly game, I need what you can give me, I want your love actually expressed through likes and replies, in a tangible way

 

I can't put days and days intro creating things and then seeing them fall into oblivion in a week. I have ZERO spare time so it takes me a lot to create what I give... and I want for it to become an ACTUAL starting platform for endless chats full of horniness and attentions

 

 

Reflect on my words

I am here, for now

Give me reasons to stay

[gldenwetgoose 21,550]

Hi Spy,

(Hope you don't mind the abbreviation) - it is great to hear from you again.  I'm really glad things have settled a little for you.

Things around here have carried on, there seem to be more and more new members every day.  Near the start of the pandemic it was obvious a lot of people had time (and the internet) and found the site.  With that inevitably many of them will be active in their posts whilst they find their feet. Many of those posts can seem like duplicates of earlier material they haven't seen ('where can I see videos of girls peeing?' - 'Erm, look in the girls peeing folders!').  So it is natural that older material gets pushed down.  Many of these newcomers have added greatly to the site, and most of the old-school are still here.  

My opinion is that unfortunately it is very uncommon for anyone to search back onto a previous page to view any material - when a member comments or adds to a post, it is always(?) a page1 post they're adding to.

Sorry, but want to be realistic there...

With new members there has also been an increase in Gold membership - and lots of your material is of course displayed there. The first time I'd properly enjoyed your videos was there...

Looking forward to seeing your new ongoing contributions....

 

Welcome back 

 

[spywareonya 37,969]

32 minutes ago, gldenwetgoose said:

My opinion is that unfortunately it is very uncommon for anyone to search back onto a previous page to view any material - when a member comments or adds to a post, it is always(?) a page1 post they're adding to

The quality of things I posted, and the fact that unless I got more likes and replies I'll leave forever and all my contents will be removed, will have to make people less superficial and selfish

Just see, I put a like to you, even if I did not appreciated part of the contents of your post, it is obvious that you put heart, brain, and time into writing it

So I just clicked

It isn't so hard to do the same with me, and with the countless very sexy and arousing things I posted

It's enough to go to my profile and start scrolling

I do with a lot of people in order to be sure I don't miss anything

Is that hard and/or absurd to expect for people to do the same with me?

Anyway, they will, or I will leave, and they will be proved so avaricious that they preferred to lose one of the forum main members rather than click a fucking reaction

It is a war of wills: my will is for people to stop taking contents for granted. Other people will side with my claim or side against it, but then they will be described by their choice

I spent nameless emotions and whole days for creating my galleries or writing important things

A click is not that much to ask in return, it just proves you are not here only to take

The world doesn't need people who only take: and surely I don't need a forum which in itself is great but would, in that hypothesys, proved to be overrun with people of that kind

Edited July 21, 2020 by spywareonya
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[spywareonya 37,969]

I prefer to add rather than to edit because posts of such an emotional intensity should not be edited because maybe somebody is preparing an answer to them and should not be puzzled if the posts suddenly changes. So I add instead of editing:

 

I do not wanna accuse the people of this forum. The thing is much subtler and more delicate.

But really, click a reaction, knowing that feedback is my fuel, is the least people can do if they really do not wanna write anything that could potentially start a fascinating chat

Completely ignoring this after I stated it so clearly, is a clear statement in itself: show my your pussy, you bitch, I'm here to jack off and not to feel grateful for the pics I see

As a woman, I cannot stand this. I want gratitude for what I share. And I am openly asking people to reply or at least click a reaction.

Ignoring this cannot be anything else than a political statement.

 

It is a very serious and deep thing, about which we should reflect

[gldenwetgoose 21,550]

I totally agree - it is very saddening when people see the forum only for what they can take from it, as a porn site or a hook-up site (where they can come, swap addresses and disappear off without any thanks for the forum existing).

I didn't expect that you would like every word I've written, but I wrote them because I have to be honest with you.  They are my opinion of the site, so I could be wrong - but I wanted to be clear.  In my opinion it's better to be honest about what you may experience.

I'm with you though - this is an amazing community, I have friendships here that I never believed possible and almost unrelated to the pee content. I'm all in favour of repaying the clicks. 

[Admin 14,815]

My thoughts have always been the same:

It'd be great for you to be back, you bring so much to this community in so many different ways.

However, you won the 'best member' awards and were pretty much always top of the likes chart etc. People definitely did (and still do) hugely appreciate everything you contribute. 

The 'problem' is that outside of our core group of members, most people never give reactions - not necessarily because they don't care, just they prefer to be a fly on the wall rather than a participant. But we have to accept everyone comes to this site for different reasons. One of the largest reasons of all is to see pictures of women peeing, and so this type of content will get more likes. 

I truly can understand your frustration here. You have poured so many hours into making friendships here, helping people and creating incredible original content. And so if a generic picture copied and posted gets more likes/appreciation, where's the fairness? But my answer is the like system is not a representation of fairness, as a large amount of members never even go outside of the pee sections.

Truthfully, at first I did not fully understand the desire of yours. But now I really do. You put so much effort in, and it takes so little effort to hit like,  why don't people just do it if it makes you happy? I genuinely do understand your perspective now - It is about being seen, and your efforts being acknowledged and appreciated.  You want to be all or nothing here - fully committed or not here at all.

But please just bear in mind that most people just don't see likes in the same way. Even me as the admin here, who should really be encouraging people with likes as much as possible, rarely leave likes. Not because I don't care, it's just not a priority for me. Sometimes I remember, but not always. There are a lot of great posts here, there's no way I'd have time to like them all. 

So, I truly do hope this post helps people realise how much the appreciation means to you, and I hope this acts as a catalyst for the likes system to be used more in general for everyone - with all members showing their appreciation for posts. And I also truly hope you feel our appreciation here and decide to stay. But as well as us trying to show our appreciation better, you will also need to accept that for most members here not liking something does NOT mean they disliked it, they just use the system in a very different way to you. I think to truly understand people's appreciation, reading the loving comments you've received is a much better reflection of peoples feelings than the number of likes. 

[Sweets 4,522]

Spy all of us who have interacted with you love you and we have missed you a great deal.  I was so happy to see you in my notifications.   But you have to understand this is a hard time for everyone.  I’ve have not been on the site much.  And I definitely have not been posting as much as I was last year.  With my work being crazy and every thing in the world that is going on around us. It’s like a depression has fallen over some of us.  There are days that go by I don’t even check in here.  For the first six months I was on here everyday.   And it has nothing to do with the site at all I love this site and very grateful to be apart of it. It’s just the way I’ve been feeling. It seems I’ve lost a great deal of my naughty ness.   And I know some of my close friends here on the site have the same issues.  Hammerheadpoilet has been going thru some very personal issues we have not video chatted since December.  And I do talk to speedy everyday and I know he’s been feeling the same as me.  It’s just been a trying time for all of us. You have not been forgotten please know this. And we have really missed you.   The last thing we all want to see you leave us forever.  You are one of the most interesting and provocative woman I’ve ever got the chance to talk to.   So please don’t feel frustrated with us.  

Edited July 21, 2020 by Sweets

[Guest UnabashedUser]

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I know somewhat of how you feel being a member of a casual garage country band.

You work on your material, songs, music all week long, and then play the gig and if the crowd is indifferent or scant or not respectful you can get angry and depressed over it.

But you can't dwell on it. You have to keep on keeping on for the art and music of it.

It's performance, it's art, it's communications and it's not your fault if people are slack responding due to the enormous overload of problems of late.

I'm overwhelmed at work here with hideous amounts of overtime and travel due to the WuHan virus and it's affected my casual writing to a great degree as well as time to spend  in pee games and gamahuching with Bonnie.

But it will get better.

Hang in there friend.

 

 

[durianfury 2,033]

@spywareonya I totally understand what you mean. I think theres a couple of issues at hand here, and a possible solution as well.

Firstly, the internet as a whole is slower right now. People have less free time, and the little tree time they get they'd rather watch the news or do something more important than watch YouTube or spend hours looking at porn. I wouldn't be surprised if the traffic to this forum is greatly less than usual, or at least somewhat less.

In addition, peefans is not the #1 place most people go to find pee content. It's a niche site, forums aren't the most popular thing anymore, and most people prefer browsing reddit, pornhub, or one of the other porn tube sites to find piss porn. There's some good stuff on there,  mostly free too.

Lastly, your content is blocked behind a paywall. I cannot enter the video gallery without a Gold membership and while I'd love to support the site and watch your sexy videos, I dont have the means right now. Since there are no teasers currently on the site (that I can find), there is little incentive to get a gold membership to watch your videos. Also, the video gallery is kinda far down the page, if it had a higher position it might get looked at more.

So, the solution. Try making some good teaser content. Use one of your videos you've already filmed, maybe your most popular one, maybe two or three preferably, and make them free to view. Let people get a really good idea of the sexiness they are signing up for! You could make these be in the peefans site itself, or if you really wanted some exposure you could post them to pornhub or one of the other big tube sites like xvideos. If you did that I could do my best to help promote you as well, I'm on just about every site out there so if you wanted I could repost your videos all over the place. 

If you did this it would be a good idea to put a watermark in the video, like in the corner, somewhat small and relatively unobtrusive but easily legible, that has your name (spywareonya) and peefans.com on it. This would bring many people to the site in search of your videos, and would bring you a lot of popularity especially if the video got upwards of 30/40K views which can happen if you're lucky and pornhub's algorithm decides to slap it on the front page of search results for 'piss'. 

I wish you the best, spywareonya, and I hope you have a fantastic day. Feel free to PM me if you wish.

[Admin 14,815]

4 hours ago, durianfury said:

@spywareonya I totally understand what you mean. I think theres a couple of issues at hand here, and a possible solution as well.

Firstly, the internet as a whole is slower right now. People have less free time, and the little tree time they get they'd rather watch the news or do something more important than watch YouTube or spend hours looking at porn. I wouldn't be surprised if the traffic to this forum is greatly less than usual, or at least somewhat less.

In addition, peefans is not the #1 place most people go to find pee content. It's a niche site, forums aren't the most popular thing anymore, and most people prefer browsing reddit, pornhub, or one of the other porn tube sites to find piss porn. There's some good stuff on there,  mostly free too.

Lastly, your content is blocked behind a paywall. I cannot enter the video gallery without a Gold membership and while I'd love to support the site and watch your sexy videos, I dont have the means right now. Since there are no teasers currently on the site (that I can find), there is little incentive to get a gold membership to watch your videos. Also, the video gallery is kinda far down the page, if it had a higher position it might get looked at more.

So, the solution. Try making some good teaser content. Use one of your videos you've already filmed, maybe your most popular one, maybe two or three preferably, and make them free to view. Let people get a really good idea of the sexiness they are signing up for! You could make these be in the peefans site itself, or if you really wanted some exposure you could post them to pornhub or one of the other big tube sites like xvideos. If you did that I could do my best to help promote you as well, I'm on just about every site out there so if you wanted I could repost your videos all over the place. 

If you did this it would be a good idea to put a watermark in the video, like in the corner, somewhat small and relatively unobtrusive but easily legible, that has your name (spywareonya) and peefans.com on it. This would bring many people to the site in search of your videos, and would bring you a lot of popularity especially if the video got upwards of 30/40K views which can happen if you're lucky and pornhub's algorithm decides to slap it on the front page of search results for 'piss'. 

I wish you the best, spywareonya, and I hope you have a fantastic day. Feel free to PM me if you wish.

I know spy was very against the idea of sharing her videos on any other sites when the topic was last mentioned, although I do agree that would bring more people to peefans and consequently more people to view and like spy's posts.  

As for free videos of spy, there are definitely a few.There's one literally on the gold page for starters: https://peefans.com/gold and I'll link to another one below too. But just to be clear I believe spy is talking about likes to posts on the forums (both the text posts and original picture posts, none of which is behind any kind of paywall anyway). 🙂 

 

 

[durianfury 2,033]

7 minutes ago, Admin said:

I know spy was very against the idea of sharing her videos on any other sites when the topic was last mentioned, although I do agree that would bring more people to peefans and consequently more people to view and like spy's posts.  

As for free videos of spy, there are definitely a few.There's one literally on the gold page for starters: https://peefans.com/gold and I'll link to another one below too. But just to be clear I believe spy is talking about likes to posts on the forums (both the text posts and original picture posts, none of which is behind any kind of paywall anyway). 🙂 

 

 

Oh, ok I misunderstood it then! I thought she was concerned that her videos in the goldmember section weren't getting very many views.  Thanks for the clarification. And thanks for the video, clearly I missed that somehow 🤦‍♂️

[HitEmAll 1,085]

Hi Spy! So great to have you back! We're all in love with you and your amazing effort to create great content. We love your character, your creativity, craziness, and of course also your amazing pics and videos! 🔥💛

[Alfresco 11,684]

Great to see you back @spywareonya.  I am sure you can see from the reaction that your initial post has received and the fact that people have been willing to write quite long posts on this thread that we have all missed you greatly and would love to have you back as a regular contributor.

I totally understand that you put a lot of time into your contributions and want to see responses and likes.   It frustrates me greatly that people spend time creating content, sharing themselves, their thoughts, their imagination and then find that the content is viewed hundreds of times but only receives a handful of likes.   It has reduced my motivation to contribute as well.   I don’t write as many stories as I used to and I have several accounts of public pee sightings that I have not yet got round to writing up either.  Maybe a more enthusiastic reception would help me to contribute more - I can’t say for certain but it would certainly help motivate me.

I do agree with others that most people don’t search back through old posts.  There is so much changing here every day that it takes considerable time to just look at new material.  That, unfortunately, means that some of the older material is overlooked unless someone adds to the threads to bring them back to the fore.

Also, people tend to look at their key areas of interest, so many not even notice a post in a section of the forums outside their main focus.

I hope that you can gain the following that you desire as there is no doubt that your content is worthy of following.  I look forward to seeing more.

Oh, and if anyone out there is wondering whether @spywareonya‘s videos in the gold section are worth watching, I can categorically say that 100% they are.

[conklin1 4]

Hi there, I'm new here. It sounds like you've contributed a lot to this website and I just wanted to let you know I'm excited to take some time tomorrow to explore it!

[spywareonya 37,969]

@Admin

I am happy to the core that you fully understand me now. No vanity, just a way to crack the shell which isolates every human unto his own. Visibility and gratitude have this meaning. They are tools. Tools to oppose love to squandering. Our lives are often squandered: love gives us a compass. It must be steel hard. And honestly, I think I can rock things about showing gratitude. Not blackamiling the forum but being open&clear about it.

 

@Sweets

You cannot lose sexyness, my love, for your sexyness never came from attitude, it was exhudated from you like a delicate perfume, the one of a quick and receptive soul. In the beginning I needed time to understand you fully. Then I simply fell in love with your sensibility.

 

@UnabashedUser

I missed your mighty and crude manliness. Even when you are kind you are cocky. I adore you and really missed you and your tales about your wife. I really look forward to reconnect with you, who always had been of solid support to me for whatever reason.

 

@durianfury

A fucking impressive stock of posts from you, pal. I felt your love, thank you immensely. For the future, I will add your ideas to some of the things I am preparing, in the meanwhile, you can really get from my past posts more than you can imagine. Sometimes old posts contains incredible things...

 

@HitEmAll

My friend THANK YOUUUUUUU!!! Your words always touch my.. ehm... heart!!! AHAHAHAH!!! And they make it soooo wet and aching... uhuhuhu!!! Glad to be back, really wanna restart our friendship!!!

 

@peeingone

The loyalty you demonstrated unto me always impressed me. I am grateful for our each exchange and about @Riley I must admit I miss her enormously, we had PMs and she shared her dark aching soul with me, and believe me she was deep as fuck, a great human being. The forum lost something without her and I sincerely hope for her return. In the beginning I felt her as a competitor but soon I understood she only wanted love, and fuck she deserved it. Thus we became BFF. I noticed she is gone, but hope never dies

 

@Alfresco

Hi friend!!! Thank you for being here, and yes, most people miss to look for previous things, but this must change, NOW!!!

Some of the hottest written contents of this forum are in the past!!! People are here for sex and fun, right? 95% of it is in old posts!!! Not only those of mine!!!

 

@conklin1

Hi pal, yes I dedicated my soul to this forum and I am a commercial partner of it, shooting copyrighted videos and porn photobooks for it and it alone. The videos, which are also on custom request when I can, are accessible to the Gold Members, a prize Admin awards unto those who help the forum survive through making a donation which ends up in the common moneypot of the forum so to pay for its existence. But my galleries are available to everyone and will soon be brought to the public attention. I am anyway more than anything proud of my written posts, both of extremely kinky actions and about philosphy, spirituality, politic, and the reasons why I make porn. My profile says a lot about me, check it whenever you want 

Edited July 23, 2020 by spywareonya

[hyde07 200]

Im honestly so happy to see your name pop up again after so long, i've genuinely been worrying about you especially with everything going on at the moment

[lovestoseepee 297]

I just wanted to add@spywareonya that's it's great to have you back I have missed seeing your postings on here and hope you decide to stay since personally I don't think the place would be the same without you. I also  wanted to say thank you for all the content you have provided for this place and I for one don't take it for granted even though I may not comment or like something that doesn't mean I don't appreciate it because I really do. I just hope we can rekindle our friendship. 🙂

Edited July 25, 2020 by lovestoseepee

[spywareonya 37,969]

On 7/24/2020 at 3:32 PM, hyde07 said:

Im honestly so happy to see your name pop up again after so long, i've genuinely been worrying about you especially with everything going on at the moment

 

On 7/25/2020 at 10:21 PM, lovestoseepee said:

I just wanted to add@spywareonya that's it's great to have you back I have missed seeing your postings on here and hope you decide to stay since personally I don't think the place would be the same without you. I also  wanted to say thank you for all the content you have provided for this place and I for one don't take it for granted even though I may not comment or like something that doesn't mean I don't appreciate it because I really do. I just hope we can rekindle our friendship. 🙂

Guys I am sad I have been away, but really, really life got in the way

About taking me for granted, that thing is not dead, I really was sincere about it and it's not a temporarily rant: I react to everything,  and will continue to do so, if people don't feel like doing it with everybody, at least do it FOR ME. When people see a pic or something heartouching I wrote, even if they are not in for a tight chitchat, click a reaction takes ONE SECOND. People have feelings and we should always ask ourselves how others could take our behaviours.

Beside this, I am happy as hell that you are still here, and love you as hell

 

[speedy3471 10,657]

Well iam glad your back🙂. You've certainly given us all alot to think about, we should take the time to give a like to each other's posts. As you mentioned you put your heart into every post, it's the least we can do to respond to them

[spywareonya 37,969]

2 hours ago, speedy3471 said:

Well iam glad your back🙂. You've certainly given us all alot to think about, we should take the time to give a like to each other's posts. As you mentioned you put your heart into every post, it's the least we can do to respond to them

Not strange that you are among the biggest fishes here, as your heart is just as much gargantuan... thank you... I can be the pumping heart of this place, but a heart needs to receive blood in order to give it back empowered...

[AshAce 57]

I’m one of the “flies on the wall” who comes here to read a lot more than I react (incognito mode, after all). This thread has inspired me to log back in for the first time In months and show some appreciation 🙂