My final call

[spywareonya 37,962]

Good morning forum

 

I am writing this because there are possibilities I will soon leave the forum, or greatly reduce my presence on it, this time forever

 

First of all, I wanna tell you all that I in NO WAY mean to abandon my new, TRUE friends on here, reason why if you already gave me your email addresses then fine, unless, simply do: we will remain in contact

 

 

I feel like it's my duty to make you all know and understand the reason I am planning to leave

 

 

I am a Witch

Beside the experiments I took part in which clearly demonstrated me the existence of what is commonly called "supernatural", what really changed in me after years of tortures and deep hypnosys, is the goals in life

They become less socially-influenced, and more linked to the "socialization of primal needs"

 

 

 

 

My need is to find a place that can be the starting point of my operation to expand the power of my Path in the Collective Unconscious, showing people how good can be to have a Witch as a friend, how good is what my philosophy lead me to share and give

Make people appreciate me as a starting point to appreciate what made me that Nancy they appreciate

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What I need, what I gave ALL I gave in order to achieve, is for people to become CONSCIOUS of the fact that what I give, cannot be given by anybody else beside by somebody who suffered for some things (including the dignity of all lonely fetishists of the world) as much as I did

 

I am the servant of the only God we all should worship, and I am not speaking of the quantistical entities I serve, I mean the god called "The glory of all that is human, starting from -and above all- SEX"

 

 

I am experiencing a constant failure in the final take-off of my visibility, with people taking for granted what I share, or simply missing to understand why I am here

 

I am NOT here out of vanity or sluttiness

My need for likes to keep my visibility afloat, and for replies to make myself being know, is toward a different goal, more primal, more idealistic, more hormonal

 

Since I had been back in the beginning of the year, I had been in contact only with my loyalists, that sharing my philosophy of "spread the love", reacted and replied to my posts eagerly, while all the rest of the forum plainly ignored me, forgetting I had been posting my very SOUL in this place, body and character

 

I am NOT here about piss

Yes, I adore it

I love to drink it, feel it slither on my body, smell it, imagine it, spray it, it is a morbid pleasure for me, I can wet my tighs simply seeing a girl fastening her belt because it means she implicitly just pissed

 

But I am NOT here for this

 

I am here to be this

 

 

 

 

If people doesn't look for a woman like this, then FINE, it's NOT an offense to me, do NOT get me wrong!!!

But to me, piss fetishism IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is a call for freedom, the glory of sluttiness,  AND NOBODY IS SLUTTIER THAN A WITCH!!!!!!

 

 

I am here to embody this role as part of my personal Destiny to fight against the Hub of Silence keeping us apart

I am here 95% about that

 

 

 

Upon failing to achieve this, I lose the 95% of the reasons I have for remaining

It's not begging for attentions, is something competely Beyond: it's a different way to live this forum, as a revolutionary core with ALL OF YOU as ARMS of the Wheel, and my desperate, MORBID love toward YOU all, as its PIVOT

 

Come to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Follow me, reply to me, read my written posts, react to them and to the posts of those already part of the Legion (they are clearly recognizable, they Always reply to everybody and put tons of likes), band together, CRAFT FETISHISM INTO A FORM OF HUMANISTIC TERRORISM against what THEY CALLED NORMALITY!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

We are MORE than single humans living our lives all apart and THEN COMING HERE TO LOOK AT ACOUPLE OF PICS AND MASTURBATE!!!! I do this daily HAHAHAHAHHAHHA

But I am ALSO more

 

I am here to drag people unto me, unto my philosophy

 

A written post worths ten thousand times a pic

We are humans before being fetishists, and we are fetishists BECAUSE WE ARE HUMANS!!!

 

YOU APPRECIATE WHAT I GAVE YOU? I gave it because I am what I am. And WHY I am what I am?

Because of what I believe in

 

A tighter forum, revolving around me, not as queen, but as MOTHER to all the feelings, the desires, the morbidness, THEY OUTLAWED!!!!

 

 

I am here to achieve this

I need an unchallenged degree of visibility based on the things I share and the appreciation they deserve, as a starting point for people to understand that the appreciation of a content, must NOT be acording to the content, but according to the HUMAN THAT SHARED IT!!!!!!!!!!

Ask yourselves: you wanna be loved for what you do, or for WHO YOU ARE????

Unconditioned love, based and WHAT YOU ENDURED TO BE YOURSELF TODAY???

 

I am calling you to this

COME TO ME

 

 

 

This is my final call

I am nothing beside this

If unheard, I will take it as a proof what I am is appreciated but not understood

What I give is not for free, nor for everybody

Is only for those that can give a human the headlong love it deserve

I love you all with twisted intensity

I summon you all to love me just as morbidly

[rajpatel1993 185]

Please stay on the forum, I would miss you otherwise.

[spywareonya 37,962]

14 minutes ago, rajpatel1993 said:

Please stay on the forum, I would miss you otherwise.

I learnt to appreciate you too in this little time we have been friend!!!

I do not wanna go away, but need to notify people I am here to achieve a very precise role, because I wanna use it in order to lead an army, to make people feel less lonely… to maybe change the world

 

I need more love and following than what I struggled to get in the last months, more people understanding I give only in order to get, not as blackmailing, but in the guise that I give in order to "lure people into getting aroused and thus more active, more reactive, more headlong, more intense, more grateful toward me and toward the other great contributors of this forum"

Sensibilize the Public toward the fact we are not here to jerk off but the get the respect Society refuses to give us

If they somehow can endure serenele the fact of being cornered, if they do not plan to lash out, then I am USELESS HERE

 

I am here to build a LEGION

I need people chatting with me but not about pointless things, I need people to commune in real friendship, realize likes are important to keep visibility afloat, and more than anything AIMING AT MAKING US ALL FEEL LESS LONELY

 

 

[HammerheadPilot 1,008]

I’ve only been on the forum a short time.   In that time, however, I’ve been accepted by many here and shown that that my interest or love of this is not a dirty secret that makes me in some way less or inferior.    I’m learning that we’re all just people who share something and are all good.   Maybe even better.   

I certainly hope you’ll receive what it is you need to stay.  I’d imagine many here look to you or rely on you without you knowing so.   

I am only in the beginning stages of my return to this exploration and journey after many years of my putting it aside.   This forum has been most instrumental, even in this short time, in rekindling it.  I refuse to believe it wasn’t meant to happen.   

You've been HUGE in this already, so thank you.   And I hope you’ll be able to stay.    

[spywareonya 37,962]

@cheekyfe11a

@HammerheadPilot

 

I propose you a reflection

You are among my best friends and you are NOT included in the list of those I consider as taking what I give for granted

You are never avaricious nor in likes nor in replies

And yet, after I wrote I want people to actually greet each other, my first post still have 0 reactions

 

If I was a newcomer posting a pic of a woman pissing, I would have already got many out of instinct

THIS is what is pressuring me to leave

 

I know the forum is about pee, do not misunderstand the essence of my complaining

 

 

Is that what I am, what I share, is too important in my eyes

 

(not for ego, but because of the horrors I faced to become who I am, horrors that constantly lurk as a "honourable background" in EVERYTHING I post, even when I am cheerful, I consider myself entitled to be that happy because I am happy OF MYSELF after ENDURING THOSE HORRORS)

 

to accept its appreciation is up to gambling with chance

I want people to greet ME, not to flatter me, THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE CHANCE TO SAY THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL, but because I want to teach people HOW MARVELLOUS IT IS TO GREET OTHERS, and how mandatorily it is for me to see intimate things greeted

Check your posts: find at least one which MISSED TO GET A LIKE FROM ME

I (good-heartedly) challenge you

 

I summon people to be like me

[Scot_Lover 1,878]

1 hour ago, spywareonya said:

This is my final call

I am nothing beside this

If unheard, I will take it as a proof what I am is appreciated but not understood

What I give is not for free, nor for everybody

Is only for those that can give a human the headlong love it deserve

I love you all with twisted intensity

I summon you all to love me just as morbidly

Please don't do this, you will be missed by so many, with us among them. You have made such a difference here, to the site in general, to me and most of all to Maigh. (You frightened Mary, sorry)

Please think about it, and don't just go. 

 

 

This pic has staggered Maigh, she has dreamt things like this, she was the leader of a clan of Picts, she has saved this to keep, and will always associate this with you.

[spywareonya 37,962]

 

 

8 minutes ago, Scot_Lover said:

Please don't do this, you will be missed by so many, with us among them. You have made such a difference here, to the site in general, to me and most of all to Maigh. (You frightened Mary, sorry)

Please think about it, and don't just go. 

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

 

 

HOW RIDICULOUS THAT THE FIRST TO NOTICE THIS POST ARE THE ONLY ONES I ALREADY CONSIDER MARVELLOUS HUMANS AND WOULD REMAIN MAYBE EVEN ONLY FOR THEM

 

 

Nobody else, nobody new

How sad to be Always right

[Scot_Lover 1,878]

Edited post, Maigh wanted me to add something about the pic.

[spywareonya 37,962]

To be UTTERLY clear once and for all, I want to achieve a limitless moral authority in order to use it to cuddle people and be believed upon telling them they are better and less alone than they think

 

To do this and be not ridiculous, I need to be HUGE

 

Become the biggest forum member (beside the unconquerable titans like Steve, who anyway is "another me" because he believes the same ideals I do, so I need not to surpass him) and then use the authority-through-vibisility to become some kind of crazy prophet enflaming people about self love, ethusiasm and emotional headlong

 

Have you seen The Wolf of Wall Street?

I want to be like Belfort portrayed by DiCaprio, but not to convince people to bow to me, but to STAND AGGRESSIVELY

 

Do you remember how it starts?

Talking to a friend in a bar, his friend works there

 

His future-2nd-in-command: "How much did you earn last month?"

DiCaprio: "Bah... roughly 70,000 dollars"

His future-2nd-in-command: "Show me the paper it says you're not saying bullshit, and I'll immediately resign from my job and follow you wherever"

 

 

I NEED THIS POWER OF CONVINCEMENT

Help me make my visibility UNDISPUTED and IMPOSSIBLE TO BE CHALLENGED

Cuddle ALL people of actual good will

They are great forum users, they deserve MORE THAN THEY ALREADY GOT, my philosophy is FOR EVERYBODY AND AGAINST NOBODY

Just never let me fall behind, as my power is Always at your service

The more I have, the harder I will love you all and thus the more I will be the Dark Mother every outcast need and deserve

Edited May 6, 2019 by spywareonya

[spywareonya 37,962]

29 minutes ago, Scot_Lover said:

This pic has staggered Maigh, she has dreamt things like this, she was the leader of a clan of Picts, she has saved this to keep, and will always associate this with you

 

It's "Freedom guiding The People", a symbol of French Revolution (of which I had almost been part, for those who believe these things, in my previous life)

To be linked by her to this pics is for me a reason to feel my heart as filled with light

THANK YOU

 

 

Edited May 6, 2019 by spywareonya

[spywareonya 37,962]

Now that I wrote the post I posted BEFORE this very one, I will go, it's late, now my reasons are there for all to see, no more secrets, no more hints, my true core revealed

 

POWER TO INSPIRE

Is my motto

GIVE ME POWER, I will put it at the forum service

Or I will not be much fitting around anymore, and I will stay only for people like you, but my dedication will be downsized

Be the obscure patroness of outcasts is my destiny

here or in another forum or outside the web, I will be where I am entitled to be that

[spywareonya 37,962]

You guys mean to much to me

I need your love, as I will settle for nothing short than being the pivot of its spiral

I love you too much to be simply "around"

You are my family, the family I never had

[will64 6,330]

I am really going to miss you around the forum and your have been a very nice and warm friend to me 🤗

[F.W 5,734]

Spyware i will miss you so much!

[Admin 14,791]

As I've said before, I of course hope you decide to stay, and I'm sure many others feel very strongly about that too.

You already do receive so much appreciation and love from us all.

However, to many people, this site is just about pee. For the more active of us, it's more than that as you said (it's a community), but there's also nothing wrong if some people just want to use this site for pee pictures and links etc.  For example, the majority of people don't even look in the General Chat section, because after all, if you come to a site called PeeFans your primary reason is going to be the pee aspect. I love the fact we do have intense debates and interesting discussions going on as well as all of the pee stuff, but the reason posts here don't get as much attention is because it's not the main function of the site, so unfortunately the majority of people don't even see a lot of your contributions. And many also don't use the likes/reaction system at all. It's really not a true measure of someone's 'value' though, and doesn't mean they are not still hugely appreciated. The awards you've won here demonstrate this.

That said, in your entire time here it seems there has been this underlying need for more, which quite honestly I don't think any forum can provide. With any forum, it will always be about a group of people, rather than focused solely on an individual. 

I sincerely hope you decide to stay -  it would be such a shame to lose you, and I am sure you would miss many people/things here yourself. Email is just not the same. However, whilst I definitely think you should stay, I feel maybe you need another source of 'power' as well to get the full attention you need. I'm not quite sure what that is sadly. A cult, perhaps?

[Guest UnabashedUser]

3 hours ago, Admin said:

However, whilst I definitely think you should stay, I feel maybe you need another source of 'power' as well to get the full attention you need. I'm not quite sure what that is sadly. A cult, perhaps?

Agreed.

[speedy3471 10,655]

Iam very sad to hear this. You and every other member here are great. You've help many of us, me included feel comfortable with our fetishes. You've helped us all gain more confidence

I do hope you stay and not leave

[steve25805 126,156]

@spywareonya,I would regard it as calamitous if you left the forum.

I understand you yearn for so much more than just the fetish. You are on a crusade and want to bring as much enlightenment as possible to as many of us as possible but the proof of your success is in being noticed. You need that.

If you feel not enough are noticing or following, you feel like leaving. But as your friend I implore you to stay. The active core membership is relatively small but we all love you.

I have my own issues which take me away from here sometimes, but if I don't react immediately because of that, I always will when I can. Last night I was not on the forum because due to stressy situations I have PM'ed you about I felt the need to get drunk.

But later this evening was thinking of reaching out to the Mistress of Cancer again, but how can I continue with such things without your guidance? I feel that I need you here and if you ceased to come here it would be a terrible loss, even if we kept in touch by other means. But though you have my email address I have no means of initiating contact with you off this site. Am afraid if you leave here I will lose you forever.

[steve25805 126,156]

17 hours ago, spywareonya said:

You are my family, the family I never had

Then stay here with us. To all the main community members, you are far more than simply "around". You are a central part of our little family. This place would never be the same without you. You have touched our lives and changed them for the better. You have certainly touched my life

[speedy3471 10,655]

17 hours ago, spywareonya said:

You guys mean to much to me

You are my family, the family I never had

Iam so very glad everyone here is like family to you, as they are to me. I hope this may encourage you to stay with us 

[Peefreak99 3,722]

I think i speak for everyone when i say i want you to stay and that you are special but in a good way and you will be missed but i will give you one of my email adresses and if you want to write do it and if you don't i understand take care friend💜

[Alan-P 2,409]

Good evening Nancy, With the problem of English it is not easy to express myself on this forum.

I signed up GOLD it's partly because of your presence and personality that I admire!

You embody freedom of expression and do not hide your thoughts and ideas.

Well sad will be this forum if you leave! but nobody has the right to dictate what you decide it's up to you and you alone to make this decision..

But a departure will mark a cross on this forum ...

Sincerely......................................

Désolé pour mon Anglais !!

Edited May 6, 2019 by Alan-P

[lovestoseepee 297]

@spywareonya I also want to say that if you do decide to leave you will be missed. I do hope you reconsider since I would also miss your posts on here. Also your videos are great as well so thank you for all your contributions to this place they are really appreciated.

[WantonLee 861]

23 hours ago, spywareonya said:

(...)

Is only for those that can give a human the headlong love it deserve 

(...)

I do not love, never have, never will; no gonna lie here.

 

Only thing I can say is:

If you think you need to shift away your focus from this forum, I will not try to convince you otherwise, just because I would _like_ you to stay.

Do what you feel is right.

[HitEmAll 1,069]

Nooo!! Was hoping to watch the Champions League semifinal here tonight, together with you and the chat.. 😥

We all are a weird kind of family, brought together by the strange coincidence that we all share the best fetish in the world. However, it feels like you are the leader of this family. Believe me, I (and probably also many other of the more quiet people in the forum) can see the huge effort that you put into your contributions to the forum, constantly providing guidance and counseling to so many of us. It for sure would be a huge loss for the forum if you decide to leave!

Whenever I visit the forum I hope for new spywareonya posts, always interesting reads, often revealing nonstandard insights showing an alternative world compared to our boring lives..