Member Updates Message From Spywareonya

[Admin 14,399]

I know many of you have grown concerned about spywareonya and so I emailed her to check she was ok. Here is the reply:

I am enormously sorry for this

And indeed, things happened

My love for the forum hasn’t weavered in the slightest

But I knew I wasn’t able to offer a pleasurable me

The Mob performed infiltrations in my society and Police checked our PCs so I had to stop logging in from work

At home, my abusive mom went back and started problems which involved police again (she is criminally insane)

And I felt (more than anything due to what my mother’s return unleashed within me) that it was time for me to go Beyond the girl who saw “happiness as a form of positive retaliation against sadness”. It is, but it’s more than this. It is the driving force of life itself.

Iwent within myself and stopped working for a while to isolate and really be reborn. Had nervous and mental breakdown. Needed to unelash and remove. Purge.

Now I’m done.

I am still numb, happy but terrified, moving my first steps in this new me

I still ADORE you all but I reached my limit as a force for Good, I needed a new me. Which now I achieved. I am desperately sorry for making you all be scared, I was tempted every day to log in and everyday broke out in tears and avoided. Now I am ready to start again.

I love you all, this never flickered. You guys are my family, and I’ll be back soon

No need to shield the forum from any of these truths. You can even copypaste this very mail.

The Halloween video will come as planned. I would have shot it anyway even if I was still sad, just gathering all my strenght. It would have not be exceedingly cheerful, but I am not the kind of person to cross borders when it comes to business (altough, if I had killed myself two weeks ago, I could have had problems shooting the video, I am here thanks to Alex, and to my actual, neverending belief in Light, but it was a bad moment)

The Halloween video will come after 3rd Nov weekend, when I will be back myself. I have not many pissing stories, as eveything in my life turned sour and I hadn’t had anything good to tell… but I love you all too much

You guys are… the most kind, intelligente, gentle and loving humans I ever met. I love YOU all.

Just to giggle about this new me, I celebrated my (for now cautious, but worthy of celebration) rebirth by pissing down an underpass, from above, squatting on the ledge and peeing through the metal bars which prevented onlookers from accidentally falling down unto the downward underpass itself. I had been distractedly helding it in all the afternoon, and released it just because I really couldn’t wait for a secluded corner. It was a waterfall in the silence of the evening, soooo Yellow and foamy I could actually see its dark colour while it arked out of my pussy, and the foam forming ten feet below on the path, and the steam rising  from the ground… I felt so horny…

I will focus on my relationship (Alex endured real shit to be by my side) and my personal Halloween celebration this week, to be back the next one, this time for real

My mom is banished again

Fuckers had been arrested and the boss are planning a promotion for me due to my hard work

And I think I finally found myself, conquest is never complete but now I feel my inner Light, it is a kind, warm hug, not simply an heroic moral compass among the emotional world of a never-healed abused child.

With Love,

Nancy 

[speedy3471 10,633]

Iam glad to hear everything has gotten back on track for her. We all face certain obstacles in life and when we overcome them we are stronger individuals 

Thanks abmin for keeping us updated

[Peefreak99 3,709]

Im happy that shes ok and i wish that no more bad things happen to her

[spywareonya 37,925]

@steve25805

@speedy3471

@Peefreak99

@Admin

and to ALL my friends on the forum...

 

I will be back soon

Thank you for EVERYTHING, and love you all...

 

EDIT:

I really DO love you a lot!

 

 

Edited October 28, 2019 by spywareonya

[Alfresco 11,151]

@spywareonya You have been sorely missed and I'm very sorry to hear of your struggles.   Take your time and don't feel obligated (I'm sure I don't need to tell you that!).   You can be sure of a warm welcome on your return.

[Peefreak99 3,709]

7 hours ago, spywareonya said:

@steve25805

@speedy3471

@Peefreak99

@Admin

and to ALL my friends on the forum...

 

I will be back soon

Thank you for EVERYTHING, and love you all...

 

EDIT:

I really DO love you a lot!

 

 

We all love you too that i can promisse you are like a mother to this forum 

[will64 5,944]

am happy your ok 🙂

[likesToLick 9,983]

On 10/28/2019 at 11:45 PM, spywareonya said:

I will be back soon

Thank you for EVERYTHING, and love you all...

Treat yourself with loving care and be at peace with the world.  We will still be here for you when you are ready for us.

[Adyguy6970 818]

Love you, Nancy, and looking forward to seeing you back here when you're able.  

[steve25805 122,107]

On 10/28/2019 at 1:15 PM, spywareonya said:

@steve25805

@speedy3471

@Peefreak99

@Admin

and to ALL my friends on the forum...

 

I will be back soon

Thank you for EVERYTHING, and love you all...

 

EDIT:

I really DO love you a lot!

 

 

Love you too, Nancy. Glad you are ok.

[mickymoist 3,371]

Same here Nancy so glad to hear you are doing better, look forward to seeing you back here whenever you are ready

Love

Mike xx

[spywareonya 37,925]

On 10/28/2019 at 12:09 AM, speedy3471 said:

Iam glad to hear everything has gotten back on track for her. We all face certain obstacles in life and when we overcome them we are stronger individuals 

Thanks abmin for keeping us updated

 

On 11/3/2019 at 11:36 AM, mickymoist said:

Same here Nancy so glad to hear you are doing better, look forward to seeing you back here whenever you are ready

Love

Mike xx

 

On 11/2/2019 at 9:31 AM, steve25805 said:

Love you too, Nancy. Glad you are ok.

 

On 11/1/2019 at 11:01 PM, Adyguy6970 said:

Love you, Nancy, and looking forward to seeing you back here when you're able.  

 

On 11/1/2019 at 5:19 AM, likesToLick said:

Treat yourself with loving care and be at peace with the world.  We will still be here for you when you are ready for us.

 

On 10/29/2019 at 12:14 AM, will64 said:

am happy your ok 🙂

 

On 10/28/2019 at 9:28 PM, Peefreak99 said:

We all love you too that i can promisse you are like a mother to this forum 

 

 

It's good to be back home...

[glad1 2,640]

1 hour ago, spywareonya said:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It's good to be back home...

It's great to have you back! 🤗

[Riley 13,014]

On 11/4/2019 at 8:44 AM, spywareonya said:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It's good to be back home...

Im so sorry for the late reply!! Your back!!!!

I think I can safely say that we all really missed you, and are really glad you are back 🙂 

I know im not the best person at helping people but if you ever need to talk to someone, or rant or anything, you can always dm me. What you had to go through sounds awful and I just want to help if I can 🙂 

Im really really sorry about the late reply and I hope you are having an amazing day, or night, or whatever time of day it is when you read this 🙂