Announcement from raven

[Riley 13,064]

I don't really know what drove me to make this post but I'm in a really nostalgic mood and also a tad sick and it drove me to write this.

I just wanted to thank everyone. I know I've made mistakes and have fallen into darkness but Everytime I log onto peefans I see welcoming faces and just amazing people in this community. I honestly might not be here today if it wasn't for this website and the people here. You all have filled me with happiness and a feeling that I am worth at least something in this world. Before this website I felt empty, like I was worthless in this world and while I still have a lot of moments of where I still feel worthless to society I feel like there are people I can talk to and that's a lot more than I could say a year ago.

I owe everyone here a huge debt in my life because I truly owe it to the people here. You guys are amazing and I don't know how I could ever express my gratitude for how you have changed my life. I've gone from a suicidal girl practically holding a knife to my throat every second of my life to being an emotionally troubled girl who listens to a lot emo music and wears a lot of black clothing. I just feel like I have somewhere I belong. Idk, it just feels nice to know there are people in this world who care if I live or die. 

I hope everyone here is happy and I hope people have the same sense of community I do. I love how even though we all have different political views, phylysophical ideas, and live in all the different corners of the world. We all care about each other and can talk about something we have in common and have a good time talking about it. 

I love everyone here and hope that I can at least try to give back to this amazing community. 

Thank you all so so so much🙂

Your local emotional girl,

-Raven

[gldenwetgoose 21,500]

What she said!!!    Well, maybe not the emo girl bit 😉 

In seriousness though, if you did give in to the darkness I can guarantee there would be a lot of tears shed across this forum.  You do have true friends that care, and give, even though they're just names on a screen.  Every person here has their own individual story - they've been hurt, get back up, get hurt again - get up again. We all need each other, and it's awesome to be reminded that we are helping each other.

Thanks for your honesty Raven - please, when the darkness sets in do message someone - let someone know, someone will be there to help.

[Peefreak99 3,722]

We will always be there for you riley 

[F.W 5,734]

I wish you can come through this dark patch and feel ok.Happiness for most people is a thousand different things.No two people feel the same emotion.

We often judge our own happiness by that of others,who we may perceive as being better off than us.Chances are,you see them at perhaps one happy time in their life.Another day,they may feel YOU are happier than them.

To me,right now,what would make me happy,would be a cuddle up,and sex.Thats what i perceive as making ME happy today.Someone else who maybe had sex today,might be miserable because they need some money,which im not bad for today.Its all "swings and roundabouts".

On here despite any disagreements we may have,im sure all of us,would club together if we could and come round and take you out for the day with us as friends.

(maybe we could all watch each other pee too!,lol)😄

[Blackinksoul30 1,246]

Black shirts... black nails... Good Charlotte... Evanescence... suicide attempt at 17... 

that was me... 

 

Please know Riley... i'm here for you. From my heart to yours. I'm so grateful for you to be here and alive. One day at a time. We will make it through.. 

[Colinology 40]

I feel your pain Riley, I know exactly where you’re coming from.

I believe that words have true meaning and that when we say something, we’re not only telling the listeners but we’re also telling ourselves.

Thats why when I talk about my depression I don’t say I battle depression or suffer depression because those two words mean you’re on the back foot.

When talking about depression I say that I fight it because I’m telling the listeners and more importantly myself that I’m on the front foot and I’m not going to give up.

keep fighting my friend 👍😊

[Jayne78 1,378]

Great post made me very thoughtful xx

[steamlover6 751]

Raven, I admire you for being so open and honest about how you feel, we truly love you for that and I for one support you all the way along your valuable life.

This passion we share is deep rooted in all of us; it is such an amazing relief to find like minded people who understand, share and really enjoy the pleasures with you, and save you from sinking, thinking you are all alone with the fantasy (as I did for a long time). I fully understand and would do anything I could to make you feel really appreciated and loved. Wish I could hold your hand right now.... xx

[steve25805 126,156]

On 6/8/2019 at 4:12 AM, Riley said:

I don't really know what drove me to make this post but I'm in a really nostalgic mood and also a tad sick and it drove me to write this.

I just wanted to thank everyone. I know I've made mistakes and have fallen into darkness but Everytime I log onto peefans I see welcoming faces and just amazing people in this community. I honestly might not be here today if it wasn't for this website and the people here. You all have filled me with happiness and a feeling that I am worth at least something in this world. Before this website I felt empty, like I was worthless in this world and while I still have a lot of moments of where I still feel worthless to society I feel like there are people I can talk to and that's a lot more than I could say a year ago.

I owe everyone here a huge debt in my life because I truly owe it to the people here. You guys are amazing and I don't know how I could ever express my gratitude for how you have changed my life. I've gone from a suicidal girl practically holding a knife to my throat every second of my life to being an emotionally troubled girl who listens to a lot emo music and wears a lot of black clothing. I just feel like I have somewhere I belong. Idk, it just feels nice to know there are people in this world who care if I live or die. 

I hope everyone here is happy and I hope people have the same sense of community I do. I love how even though we all have different political views, phylysophical ideas, and live in all the different corners of the world. We all care about each other and can talk about something we have in common and have a good time talking about it. 

I love everyone here and hope that I can at least try to give back to this amazing community. 

Thank you all so so so much🙂

Your local emotional girl,

-Raven

We are all a very supportive bunch around here. Am so glad our forum has helped you. And you give lots back cos you are a popular member.

[kinkydom 203]

Riley, I don't know you very well and we've only corresponded a couple times but you've come across as a considerate and thoughtful person. We're all here for the same reason, to share our love and interest for our fetish. Like minded people that we will probably never meet. Bonding, sharing, joking and laughing. And yes, sometimes crying. We are more than the sum of our parts. We are individuals. Imperfect, flawed... Yet, we grow better everyday. Things are looking down for you now, but they will improve. They always do.

2 yrs ago, I lost almost all I loved. Or thought I loved. But I had friends and family that helped me. The lesson I learned was the people in your life are there for a reason. They picked YOU to be their friend. Rely on them when needed.

Every life has value. Live it everday.

[Adyguy6970 878]

On 6/8/2019 at 4:12 AM, Riley said:

I don't really know what drove me to make this post but I'm in a really nostalgic mood and also a tad sick and it drove me to write this.

I just wanted to thank everyone. I know I've made mistakes and have fallen into darkness but Everytime I log onto peefans I see welcoming faces and just amazing people in this community. I honestly might not be here today if it wasn't for this website and the people here. You all have filled me with happiness and a feeling that I am worth at least something in this world. Before this website I felt empty, like I was worthless in this world and while I still have a lot of moments of where I still feel worthless to society I feel like there are people I can talk to and that's a lot more than I could say a year ago.

I owe everyone here a huge debt in my life because I truly owe it to the people here. You guys are amazing and I don't know how I could ever express my gratitude for how you have changed my life. I've gone from a suicidal girl practically holding a knife to my throat every second of my life to being an emotionally troubled girl who listens to a lot emo music and wears a lot of black clothing. I just feel like I have somewhere I belong. Idk, it just feels nice to know there are people in this world who care if I live or die. 

I hope everyone here is happy and I hope people have the same sense of community I do. I love how even though we all have different political views, phylysophical ideas, and live in all the different corners of the world. We all care about each other and can talk about something we have in common and have a good time talking about it. 

I love everyone here and hope that I can at least try to give back to this amazing community. 

Thank you all so so so much🙂

Your local emotional girl,

-Raven

Thanks for sharing, Raven.  I felt very humbled reading what you'd put.