Sometimes I feel ashamed, I don’t know why and I hate that.

[Love2seeherpee 72]

Hello all! I haven’t posted on or visited this site in years. There is no real reason, maybe because I used to work a lot, and maybe I didn’t really have much to say on the subject of peeing. But I am back because I feel like I need to address something I am having issues with: being ashamed of this fetish. 
 

To start, I have been into watching girls pee since I was in 6th grade and I am 34 this July. I just feel like there is not many more things as intimate and arousing as watching something that can be very private and intimate, along with the relief that comes with it. There are girls who have sex with men and won’t even let them watch them pee. I just love this shit. It’s how I am wired. Go to my profile and see why I am so passionate about this fetish. Just today I heard a girl peeing from behind a bathroom door and got so turned on. It sounded like someone dumping a pitcher of water in a toilet. Had to get it together as I still working (I am a food courier).
 

But I am stating to feel ashamed that I am into this stuff. I guess it mainly comes from the fact that this fetish isn’t as widely accepted as others (I am an American). I feel like if I told someone this “secret” I was intimate with, or in a relationship with, they’d drop all contact with me. Judge me. Think I am disgusting like some pervert.

But I would NEVER spy on a girl who didn’t want to be seen peeing, as much as I would want to witness it. I am a very good person, raised right and to treat others the way I would want to be treated. And I feel like I am harboring some deep dark secret, like if everyone in my life knew who I really was, instead of this great guy who is funny, caring and honest and kind and very popular because of all that, they’d drop me at the drop of a hat. 
 

And it’s not like people go around telling their fetishes, that would be weird. But is this one really so fucked up as I feel it is? I mean all girls do it, all the time and more often than men; it’s pretty basic if you break it down. So maybe after all these years of not posting on here, I’m looking for some reassurance that I’m not a bad person or wrong for this. Maybe I am being dramatic about this.  But I feel like some of us have felt this way in some sense.
 

Help me here guys and girls alike. I’m not sick or anything. Just love this intimate act and can’t feel any other way about it. Thank you for your time and reading a kind of long post.

 

[Bacardi 10,134]

I've gone through periods of time where I felt the same; especially after I confessed to my ex and he shamed the pants off of me. For what it's worth, I am wired to be into pee too and it's been that way since my age was in the single digits. I also grew up very conservative Christian (which teetered on cult levels, so I am talking VERY conservative) which looked down on anything that wasn't missionary sex between married couples. I was taught that sex and my body parts were dirty, that pee was dirty, so I always thought this one part of me was something to be ashamed about. 

One thing that helped me was the sex positive movement. It basically states that as long as your sexuality is safe, sane, and consensual that it is perfectly fine. Exploring your pee fetish in a way that does not upset or involve any unwilling participants and does not harm yourself or anyone around you is just fine, and there is nothing to be ashamed about. I can promise you that I have heard of kinks that I think are stranger and have given me a giggle, but we are all responsible adults and I've never looked at those people any differently than I would look at anyone here. 

Bottom line: as long as you are exploring the fetish in a safe way then everything is going to be a okay. 

I have enjoyed so much getting to know people on here, because everyone here gets the fetish for what it is at its core. Becoming active on peefans has been so great for exploring the fetish as well as other aspects of my sexuality and has put me in contact with others who range from very shy and new to the fetish to experienced veterans and each and everyone of them has taught me the same thing: this is normal. Having a parter who is into pee and peeing everywhere is normal. Having a parter who knows and is not into it so you explore by yourself is normal. Being single or being with a partner that does not know so you have to entertain yourself is normal too. Again, as long as what you do with the fetish doesn't put you or anyone else in danger, then it is healthy, and peefans has been that perfect outlet for myself and some others.

I'm truly sorry you feel this way. I know where you're coming from and it legit made me feel so bad reading this. I am a writer and I feel like I wrote this response right from my soul so it is so long, but I hope at least some of it helps you lol. 

[steve25805 126,081]

In my younger days I used to feel deep shame and embarassment about the fetish.

Back then there was no internet to allow reaching out to like-minded people. But in the 12 years I have been online interacting with fellow fetishists, I have come to feel part of a community and have come to terms with myself. I no longer feel the shame and embarassment I once did. Live and let live. 

[gldenwetgoose 21,494]

I’m not sure I can add a single word to either of those reassurances from @Bacardi & @steve25805

Summed up the situation perfectly - the sometime shame I used to feel has gradually faded, I’m sure as a direct consequence of knowing friends as amazing as these and knowing I’m most definitely not alone. 

[Starks2010 2,197]

Nothing to be ashamed of. I used to be shy about it but I learned that a closed mouth doesn’t get fed. When I put my pee fetish out there I learned that women piss in public and even naughty places out of convenience or emergency. Those naughty places were store fitting rooms. I got two women admit to it. I even had a girl I was seeing tell me she liked peeing on people after I told her about my fetish. 
 

I love when women piss. I too am American. Most women have peed on the ground I have learned and they don’t know they enjoy peeing on you or for you until you introduce them to it. You can see women pee in public if you set yourself up in the right places, like night life areas. I’d sit in a car and women would come and piss right in front of me, feet from me as I sat there in plain sight in my car with dark colored interior. 

You mentioned you’re a food courier, I was delivering food when I discovered tissue and napkins between commuter vans and small church buses which made me come back and observe the area late night/early morning when the lounges and clubs were open. Come to find out that was a ladies room for the lounge waitresses and they would come running there between 2am and 3am in pairs to relieve themselves before going back to serve patrons. Also patrons would use that spot because the lounge was so small and I guess had a bathroom line. 

Don’t be ashamed of what makes you happy. Don’t ever feel like it’s not normal because who defines what normal is as an ex girlfriend stated to me. Good luck to you and be proud. I’ll tell you this, people you’ve dated never forget you with the piss fetish. I may talk to an ex I haven’t spoken to in years and they always ask if I’m still into that. 

[muffinhuntr 1,213]

I, too was raised to believe that anything sexual was a sin and very dirty and peeing was a very personal and very private thing. As I got older and more exposed to worldly things I began to realize that everyone has some kind of fetish, and peeing is a very mild and safe one in comparison to others which are far more dangerous. So I began to tell partners about my fetish about watching girls pee, some were willing some were not. I am happy to say that I am in a relationship where we can be open and honest with each other and she lets me see her pee often.

So, you're not a pervert. Everyone has something they feel is dirty and if everyone did it openly it wouldn't be a fetish! Enjoy your self. Peeing is natural and harmless, a long as partners agree. Go ask a girl to piss for you! 

[Remi 1,034]

It is absolutely the same for me. I'd gladly trade this and all the other more 'out of the ordinary' kinks i have in against something vanilla passion. In a heartbeat.

But see it this way: you are not alone. Not at all if you look how many views those kind of videos have and how frequented certain places with this topic are. Plus there are so much way more bizarre kinks out there. Most people have certain kinks and special affections for something, whether they realize it or not. No matter your status. Some are more open about it and continue to exist aswell. Each one has different stuff that gets them going a bit and as long as you are not hurting anyone without consent people should have more of a 'not my business' attitude towards other peoples interests.

The pee kink is much more common and not that unnatural as it often has a sexual connotation in nature aswell if i am not mistaken. And to be honest...is there any difference in getting turned on by accidently hearing someone pee or by spotting someone with a nice body/butt on the street? No need for shame.

So try to enjoy yourself as good as you can. Others most likely do. And if you don't want to tell anyone about it thats fine. I don't. Others most likely don't do that aswell or how many people are completely open about it with anyone besides their partner, if thats even the case? Having said all that...fuck what others think.  

(If only that'd be so easy...)

Edited June 21, 2022 by Remi

[Sexismygod 1,782]

I can't say I've felt shame, but I have felt guilt.  After all, if I have to hide what I do and I know others would judge me for what I've done, I'm guilty, right?  These feelings come and go at random intervals.

But the guilty feelings have never stopped me from peeing in places I know I shouldn't.  In fact, they sometimes encourage me.  Yeah, this is "bad", so sue me, whatever.

In the end, I hurt no one (unless the carpet has feelings, too) so I get over it.  I'm not ashamed of what I've done but I do get the guilty twinges.  I get where you're coming from and if I gave more of a damn about what other people think I might think of it as shame.  But I don't, so I just have my fun and let the guilt go.  It's not worth my time and energy dwelling on what others think.

Be true to yourself, don't hurt others, and be free.  Everything else is just social conditioning. 

[oliver2 4,419]

1 hour ago, Remi said:

The pee kink is much more common and not that unnatural as it often has a sexual connotation in nature aswell if i am not mistaken. And to be honest...is there any difference in getting turned on by accidently hearing someone pee or by spotting someone with a nice body/butt on the street? No need for shame.

@spywareonya somehow flipped my understanding of this upside down. Is there anything sexy about pee? What could be sexual about genitals and fluids? ... Maybe it's, as much as that we somehow became unusually into it, other people became surprisingly not into it, and I haven't thought it about quite the same way since

[oliver2 4,419]

5 hours ago, Bacardi said:

One thing that helped me was the sex positive movement. It basically states that as long as your sexuality is safe, sane, and consensual that it is perfectly fine. Exploring your pee fetish in a way that does not upset or involve any unwilling participants and does not harm yourself or anyone around you is just fine

I'd be happier if I could feel more solace from the sex-positive movement. Safe, sane and consensual is a fine banner to march under, but the prosecution lawyer in my head is quite capable of twisting things until something falls off the edge (how willing was the girl in the  video I just watched, and how can I tell?) And conventional penetrative sex can only be made safe-ish, there are practical limits. (With the oddity that, from this angle, should I be more ashamed of my more "vanilla" desires than of the pee-kink ones?)

Edited June 21, 2022 by oliver2

[Bacardi 10,134]

8 minutes ago, oliver2 said:

I'd be happier if I could feel more solace from the sex-positive movement. Safe, sane and consensual is a fine banner to march under, but the prosecution lawyer in my head is quite capable of twisting things until something falls off the edge (how willing was the girl in the  video I just watched, and how can I tell?) And conventional penetrative sex can only be made safe-ish, there are practical limits. (With the oddity that, from this angle, should I be more ashamed of my more "vanilla" desires than of the pee-kink ones?)

I am relieved then that I wrote that for the user that was struggling to accept his fetishes, and not for the prosecution lawyer in your head 😇

[oliver2 4,419]

4 minutes ago, Bacardi said:

I am relieved then that I wrote that for the user that was struggling to accept his fetishes, and not for the prosecution lawyer in your head 😇

I will hand it to the defense lawyer in my head & hope for the best ❤️ And all this is about the sex-positive movement in general, not about your wonderful summary of it

Edited June 21, 2022 by oliver2

[Takashi96 1,076]

I feel huge guilt and shame about this fetish. And out of the few people I've admitted it to, some have actually used it against me later. It sucks having people know your weakness. Once at a bar, a woman I barely know said "your ex likes to talk when she's wasted. And I found out some pretty interesting stuff about you." Then gave me a wink. And not in a sexy way.