Aww I feel your pain! I am in the same situation with my husband. I hate waiting for him to be gone to play alone. Sometimes when I crave it so bad, I pee into my cupped hand on the toilet and then rub my pee on my pussy. I love the warmth of piss against my pussy, and the naughtiness of pulling my pants up to appear like nothing happened. I have wet my panties on occasion too, it is a short term relief.