Happy Holidays to my Favorite Website

[Bacardi 9,136]

I know I'm kinda early 🤣 but hear me out! 

I want to wish all of my beloved peefans friends the happiest of holidays. I know I've taken a little bit of time off but there was no way I was gonna miss the opportunity to express my love and gratitude to my friends here for the holidays. 

The truth is I've been in the worst depression I've ever had in the last few months. I've lost one of my beloved pets to old age two weeks before Christmas and I still cry and mourn her loss every day. It's also been a revolving door of illnesses in my home. Every time one of us is healthy another one gets sick. I've had to battle a sinus infection that was so brutal I contemplated pulling out my back teeth, the flu, random colds, and now that Christmas is 2 days away we all have covid and one of my children is also getting over an eye infection. So im quarantined with nothing but my family and my thoughts on how I wanted this Christmas to be different and fun but obviously it's not happening anymore.

I miss you guys so much. Logging in and seeing all of my notifications and messages made me cry honestly. But I'm just not in the right headspace right now to allow myself to access the forum, especially since my husband and kids are all home and I need to take care of them. I love everyone here for creating such an accepting environment that's allowed me to express myself freely and who has given me some loving and caring friends for life. You guys are the best. Please never change. 

I dont even know why I'm posting this. Merry Christmas to those who celebrate, and if not have a happy holiday.  Hope you guys are all healthy and happy and enjoying time with your family. 

I love you all.

-Bacardi. 

[gldenwetgoose 20,254]

We love you @Bacardi - and you know as well as anyone, Peefans isn't just a collection of porn, it isn't just a bunch of people wanking over what everyone else would call sick and perverted.

Peefans is a bunch of people.  We all have our connection, we all are there for one another.  We're there for you.

Totally understand now isn't the time, but when you're ready we're here for you.  Until then you're in our hearts.

Have an amazing time with your family, a wonderful and hopefully happy, calming time (as much as kids at Christmas permit) - and raise a quiet glass at the dinner table.  We'll do the same thinking of you.

 

[Kupar 12,428]

I'm hoping you are all soon feeling better @Bacardi. I am thinking of you, and sending love. Take care gorgeous 💖

[mickymoist 3,337]

Hope you're feeling better soon @Bacardiand have a lovely christmas and a happier new year xx

Edited December 23, 2023 by mickymoist

[Scot_Lover 1,786]

Thinking of you @Bacardi, sorry you’re feeling so sick and tired. M also passes on her best wishes, and hopes you all get better soon. 
 

Take care, we all miss you on site, get well soon.

 

[likesToLick 9,799]

@Bacardi This, too, shall pass.

Hoping you are all feeling well again soon,  and that 2024 brings you back to happiness.

[glad1 2,597]

Wishing you as much happiness as you have given us. I'm sorry that your year is ending on such a down note. Here's hoping 2024 will be much better for you. 

[Sophie 23,066]

Happy holidays Bootyful

Sending you well wishes and healing hugs. Always an ear if you need it.

💖

[Bacardi 9,136]

You guys are all the best and I really love you all.

For the most part we are all doing better. I'm still experiencing stressors in life but overall things have calmed down. I've started crocheting again and am really focused on university since I graduate in December of this year 😁 

It's gonna sound wild but I was really enjoying my time without peefans. Like I think I simply spent too much time on here which was really detrimental to my mental health. My other health issues just agitated it even more. 

So, in the future I will be here, just in moderation! 

[gldenwetgoose 20,254]

I read your last sentence there @Bacardi and got all excited you were joining us on the moderation team.  Wishful thinking maybe?

Awesome to hear from you - was missing you so much.  Onwards and upwards, one day at a time.  But amazing you’re back. 

[Bacardi 9,136]

2 hours ago, gldenwetgoose said:

I read your last sentence there @Bacardi and got all excited you were joining us on the moderation team.  Wishful thinking maybe?

No gooseman I don't have the patience you do! 

2 hours ago, gldenwetgoose said:

Onwards and upwards, one day at a time.  But amazing you’re back. 

Yes, that's the goal. Gonna ease my way back into the forum and gonna try to keep my head up high. I really did miss the forum a whole lot. Like I said before, just gotta enjoy my time here in moderation ☺️