Discovering sexuality for the first time at 20-something

[jacob_puddleman 35]

Greetings!

I'll start with some vulnerable context about myself:

I'm only just coming around to accepting this fetish of mine and thinking about it in terms of my identity + my sexuality. Without getting too deep into the details, among other reasons for sexual dissociation from my body, I started a medication in my mid-teens that basically shut down my libido. I identified as asexual throughout high school because nothing interested me in that way. I didn't realize how seriously it had affected me until I stopped taking that medication in my early-20s and my libido noticeably unpaused itself within days. All of that to say--I am in my mid-to-late 20s and I'm only just figuring out that I am a living, breathing human being who has a sex drive. It is thrilling to be able to experience sexuality at all, but damn, it's a vulnerable place to be, and I'm insecure about everyone else in my social circle getting a 15+ year head start on managing their sexuality.

So that's why I'm here, I guess. Fantasizing about desperation peeing and wetting has been a constant sexual touchstone for me, and joining a community surrounding it is an acknowledgement of this part of myself that I was unable to explore for so long. It is also a tentative promise to myself (and to you, if you're interested!) that I will be daring enough to do something worth posting about someday despite my terrible stage fright. I have many stories in my head from living in a city notorious for smelling like piss, so that seems like a safe place to start. 🙂

So, to introduce myself:

I'm Jacob! I'm a graduate student in my mid-to-late 20s. I prefer to lurk, but I enjoy posting if a topic compels me. I'm nervous about putting myself out there in any sexual way, but I'm taking baby steps exploring on my own and trying my best to not damage my kidneys on the way. I enjoy rock music, carpentry, spicy food, and taking long pees in the great outdoors. I'm excited to join in this community with you and thank you for taking the time to get to know me!

 

Edited August 19, 2023 by jacob_puddleman

[Adyguy6970 877]

Hi and welcome, Jacob.  I think we're all individuals with our own unique stories.  However we're a friendly bunch and I'm sure you'll fit in easily here. 

[gldenwetgoose 21,487]

Hi Jacob, and a huge welcome to Peefans.

I'm sure you've already discovered, you'll find a huge volume of stimulating material here.  That includes photos, links to videos, fiction and true accounts from our members.  You'll hopefully be getting to grips with how it's organised across the site, so you can find material that best stimulates your particular direction.

It's worth noting we (or maybe just I) often describe us as a huge family.  Not everyone is here for a 'sexual fetish' as such, many just enjoy the kink themselves, many don't link it directly to sexual arousal.  There are many too who practice and enjoy for themselves - and we're definitely not some kind of hook up site.  You knew that anyway.

But a huge welcome to you.  Enjoy finding your way around, and do shout up with any questions as you go. 

[MidoriLemonade85 2,366]

1 hour ago, gldenwetgoose said:

Hi Jacob, and a huge welcome to Peefans.

I'm sure you've already discovered, you'll find a huge volume of stimulating material here.  That includes photos, links to videos, fiction and true accounts from our members.  You'll hopefully be getting to grips with how it's organised across the site, so you can find material that best stimulates your particular direction.

It's worth noting we (or maybe just I) often describe us as a huge family.  Not everyone is here for a 'sexual fetish' as such, many just enjoy the kink themselves, many don't link it directly to sexual arousal.  There are many too who practice and enjoy for themselves - and we're definitely not some kind of hook up site.  You knew that anyway.

But a huge welcome to you.  Enjoy finding your way around, and do shout up with any questions as you go. 

Tell him how it is, Goose! We *are* one big, international, accepting, open minded, imaginative, talented, horny, funny and loving wet family! 💚

[MidoriLemonade85 2,366]

Welcome! I think you will love it here! You’ll be fine… there are people of all ages here if you need advice on anything. Yes, start small. No pressure! 💚

[nenTyp 657]

There is no need to share anything that you are still uncomfortable with, you can just start detailing your thoughts on here and find out what exactly your interestst are.

No matter what, pee and general sexual content will find an audience here.

[jacob_puddleman 35]

Thank you for all the kind welcomes! I have had a rough day so seeing friendly replies to this post has started my evening on a better note. 

17 hours ago, Adyguy6970 said:

Hi and welcome, Jacob.  I think we're all individuals with our own unique stories.  However we're a friendly bunch and I'm sure you'll fit in easily here. 

14 hours ago, MidoriLemonade85 said:

You’ll be fine… there are people of all ages here if you need advice on anything. Yes, start small. No pressure! 💚

12 hours ago, nenTyp said:

There is no need to share anything that you are still uncomfortable with, you can just start detailing your thoughts on here and find out what exactly your interestst are.

Thank you for that reassurance! Baby step experimentation was my main impetus for finally making an account, tbh. It's empowering to not feel so ashamed of my body and revolted by what arouses me, and I'm excited to take such an active role in my own pleasure for the first time. I definitely feel like I'm among friends here--thank you for so openly contributing to the safety I already feel within this community. See you around! 🙂 

 

17 hours ago, gldenwetgoose said:

I'm sure you've already discovered, you'll find a huge volume of stimulating material here.  That includes photos, links to videos, fiction and true accounts from our members.  You'll hopefully be getting to grips with how it's organised across the site, so you can find material that best stimulates your particular direction.

It's worth noting we (or maybe just I) often describe us as a huge family.  Not everyone is here for a 'sexual fetish' as such, many just enjoy the kink themselves, many don't link it directly to sexual arousal.  There are many too who practice and enjoy for themselves - and we're definitely not some kind of hook up site.  You knew that anyway.

I'm glad I decided to delve deep into this website over my weekend! There is certainly a lot to discover but I am getting my bearings, though hopefully folks don't mind me reacting to posts from several years ago once I get that far into the archives. You also bring up a good point that I'm excited to explore for myself--even though this is an interest I have only pursued sexually as an adult, I'm very interested in the opportunity to explore it with the same curiosity I explored it with as a kid. I'm sure you and many folks here would know what I mean about that more innocent fascination to be had with all of this, and it seems like this is a safe and fun place to explore that interest beyond Pornhub. 🙂 Thank you for all that you do and I look forward to interacting with you!

Edited August 20, 2023 by jacob_puddleman

[Bladderlad 823]

Hello! Welcome to the forum. I hope that you have fun here 😀

[MidoriLemonade85 2,366]

On 8/20/2023 at 9:09 AM, jacob_puddleman said:

Thank you for all the kind welcomes! I have had a rough day so seeing friendly replies to this post has started my evening on a better note. 

Thank you for that reassurance! Baby step experimentation was my main impetus for finally making an account, tbh. It's empowering to not feel so ashamed of my body and revolted by what arouses me, and I'm excited to take such an active role in my own pleasure for the first time. I definitely feel like I'm among friends here--thank you for so openly contributing to the safety I already feel within this community. See you around! 🙂 

 

I'm glad I decided to delve deep into this website over my weekend! There is certainly a lot to discover but I am getting my bearings, though hopefully folks don't mind me reacting to posts from several years ago once I get that far into the archives. You also bring up a good point that I'm excited to explore for myself--even though this is an interest I have only pursued sexually as an adult, I'm very interested in the opportunity to explore it with the same curiosity I explored it with as a kid. I'm sure you and many folks here would know what I mean about that more innocent fascination to be had with all of this, and it seems like this is a safe and fun place to explore that interest beyond Pornhub. 🙂 Thank you for all that you do and I look forward to interacting with you!

Yes!! You’re one of my kind. I personally see pee as a spiritual thing but I know I have had this interest since I was a young kid. It does not have to be a raunchy, dirty, hidden thing. It’s a lot of fun. We have so many laughs here! Just check out the Chat box! And the funnies section! Warning…don’t get addicted to PeeFans! We’ve all been there!! 💚 Enjoy! 

[jacob_puddleman 35]

7 hours ago, MidoriLemonade85 said:

Yes!! You’re one of my kind. I personally see pee as a spiritual thing but I know I have had this interest since I was a young kid. It does not have to be a raunchy, dirty, hidden thing. It’s a lot of fun. We have so many laughs here! Just check out the Chat box! And the funnies section! Warning…don’t get addicted to PeeFans! We’ve all been there!! 💚 Enjoy! 

Excited to find a kindred spirit! I agree—I’ve explored the raunchy stuff in my coming-to-terms with this interest and very little of it appeals to me. I gravitate toward more mundane peeing and desperation, which elicits its own embodying and, yeah, weirdly spiritual feelings within me. I look forward to giving my body over to this interest more and releasing the shame I have always felt around it in doing so, and having found a supportive community to explore in/with/around is beyond awesome. I’m having a great time so far—thank you for your kindness and I’m looking forward to chatting with you more! 

[Remi 1,034]

It is said that comparing ones self to others is the fastest way to unhappyness. Everyone walks their path at their own speed, some take turns, some run fast but end up in a dead-end street....so the only thing that matters is that you are going where you feel you belong regardless of where others are on their path.

I hope you will be able to leave those worries behind and fully accept yourself. I know it can be difficult at times, i didn't really accept it aswell at first and even now there are times i am having difficulties with it. Enjoy your new found playing field, i'm hoping it turns out to be as much fun as you expect it to be.

[MidoriLemonade85 2,366]

On 8/23/2023 at 5:31 AM, jacob_puddleman said:

Excited to find a kindred spirit! I agree—I’ve explored the raunchy stuff in my coming-to-terms with this interest and very little of it appeals to me. I gravitate toward more mundane peeing and desperation, which elicits its own embodying and, yeah, weirdly spiritual feelings within me. I look forward to giving my body over to this interest more and releasing the shame I have always felt around it in doing so, and having found a supportive community to explore in/with/around is beyond awesome. I’m having a great time so far—thank you for your kindness and I’m looking forward to chatting with you more! 

Yes, I love the nonchalant peeing…like someone peeing on the floor while drinking a cup of tea and chatting. Or naughty stuff like peeing on the wall or on clothes. Desperation is lovely. So much to see and do and  have learned so much here! Kick your shame to the kerb and explore!! Chat later! 💚