Just a few months back I was also completely hopeless in terms of ever getting to explore me fetish with a partner either male or female, but now just a few months later and I am in a happy relationship with a girl who I love with all my heart and as of recently we have started experimenting with pee stuff and it is going really well. My point is never give up on yourself I'm sure you will find a partner and once you do it will be amazing! I wish you the best of luck. Plus this site is a great place to meet other pee lovers. Who knows maybe you will find a friend here who lives nearby.