Overdue for an intro

[Clearestblur21 145]

I've been checking these forums for some time, but now I feel like I should start posting some things. 

I'm an american in my mid-20s and I've been into pee for well over a decade, though it took me a while to not be embarrassed by it. When I was a teen, me and my friends would go on sites like Break.com and look at all the pornographic and weird stuff it had. One video we saw was of a woman peeing like a geyser outside, and while my friends thought it was gross, I was strangely intrigued by it; seeing a woman unleash a mighty torrent that sprayed larger than how a guy could pee was really captivating. I started to look for more of that stuff on my own, and I realized that I liked masturbating to women peeing more than I did watching regular porn. It made me really horny, but I felt like a freak for it. 

It took me a long time to "understand" why I'm into what I'm into, and with hindsight being 20/20, I realized a number of formative experiences have involved peeing. I still remember my dad showing me how to use my "God-given squirtgun" for the first time when I had to pee as a kid and there wasn't a bathroom around, and though my parents told me only to do it in an emergency, I would often pee outside if I was out playing and didn't want to go back in the house. Sometimes when me and my neighbor friend were playing in the woods out back, we would choose our own trees and see who could water them more, like a game. 

I think pee games like that are very common for young boys, but I developed a new desire for pee "adventures" when I was a pre-teen, before puberty. I would wait late at night when my parents went to sleep and hold my pee, then go for a walk and think of a place to unload. I'd go to the park nearby and pee in the trashcan, or a storm drain, or try peeing patterns into the baseball field. The combo of peeing in a strange new place and having to pee a lot really excited me, and looking back on it, I think it was my weird proto-masturbation before I even did that. I couldn't explain it back then, but after all this time I do believe peeing is very adjacent to sexual pleasure, and a sensation that everyone can appreciate. I might also be more inclined to the sensation because I am uncut, and I believe that uncut men are more able to appreciate the feeling of peeing because of the intact nerves down there, but that's another discussion. 

But aside from what I did as a younger kid, one of my first experiences with the female anatomy was seeing a girl pee. In 6th grade, my class had a weekend-long field trip to some nature reservation, and we basically spent it going hiking and talking about biology and stuff. Obviously, the class was separated by boys and girls sleeping in different dorms, but during the daytime we maintained our groups of 3 for projects. My group was me, a friend from class, and this girl who I was also friendly with (in hindsight, she may have had a bit of a crush on me but that's irrelevant.) One afternoon, the groups were tasked with hiking around a few areas near the reservation buildings and documenting the different species we could find. Since there was a pond near the boys dorm, a lot of the groups went there to try finding frogs and fish and whatnot. My group ended up being one of the few to go into the forest looking for mushrooms and poison ivy and stuff. When we started to go more into the woods and find stuff to write down, my friend realizes that he doesn't have a pencil, and runs back to the main area to try getting one from a teacher. So it's just me and this girl (we'll call her Alison), and we slowly continue our path in the forest, and then Alison goes "is anybody around?" I say no I don't think so, and she goes "ok I have to pee" and hands me her pencil and notebook. I shockingly ask her "wait right here?" and she goes shhh and walks a few steps off the path towards a big tree. She tells me to keep watch if anyone else comes near, but I generally just sneaked peeks at her as she peed. I could see her Supergirl underwear down at her knees, and I could hear her stream splashing on the leaves, and it was really exciting. But having thought back on that before, I think the thing that really excited me the most was the candor of it. She could've made much more of an effort to go further away from me and be hidden before she peed, but she did it somewhat close to me, and didn't seem that bothered that I was around for it. It almost felt like a show of trust, and while I could be really overanalyzing that, that's something that's very sweet to me. When she finished, I could see her wiggle her butt around to shake off the drops, and she pulled her underwear and jeans back on and stepped back onto the trail. I think I was blushing when I handed her her things back, and I awkwardly said something like "I didn't know girls could pee outside alright," and she said "when you gotta go you gotta go," and then we just kept on throughout the day never mentioning it again, though I thought about it a lot to myself. 

I think that about covers my upbringing with my kink. For years, I lived with this kink in secret shame, but what needed to help me get over that was to actually talk about and enjoy what I enjoy. One of the things it took me to open up more was seeing all these other people who are into pee as much as I am. I've still never shared/enjoyed this kink with a partner before, though I'm someone who hardly dates to begin with. I've been around a few other women who have peed in front of me and it (secretly) drove me wild. But I hope to find someone who wants to play around with me like this. Maybe go on pee adventures as a couple, and though I love to watch women pee, I'm intrigued with having a woman watch me pee, and hold my cock while I do it. 

Aside from that, I just feel like I want to talk more about this thing I'm into and have a place where I can express myself about it, since I can't just up and shout about it in the store or something lol. So here I am!

 

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On ‎7‎/‎13‎/‎2018 at 9:50 AM, Clearestblur21 said:

I've been checking these forums for some time, but now I feel like I should start posting some things. 

I'm an american in my mid-20s and I've been into pee for well over a decade, though it took me a while to not be embarrassed by it. When I was a teen, me and my friends would go on sites like Break.com and look at all the pornographic and weird stuff it had. One video we saw was of a woman peeing like a geyser outside, and while my friends thought it was gross, I was strangely intrigued by it; seeing a woman unleash a mighty torrent that sprayed larger than how a guy could pee was really captivating. I started to look for more of that stuff on my own, and I realized that I liked masturbating to women peeing more than I did watching regular porn. It made me really horny, but I felt like a freak for it. 

It took me a long time to "understand" why I'm into what I'm into, and with hindsight being 20/20, I realized a number of formative experiences have involved peeing. I still remember my dad showing me how to use my "God-given squirtgun" for the first time when I had to pee as a kid and there wasn't a bathroom around, and though my parents told me only to do it in an emergency, I would often pee outside if I was out playing and didn't want to go back in the house. Sometimes when me and my neighbor friend were playing in the woods out back, we would choose our own trees and see who could water them more, like a game. 

I think pee games like that are very common for young boys, but I developed a new desire for pee "adventures" when I was a pre-teen, before puberty. I would wait late at night when my parents went to sleep and hold my pee, then go for a walk and think of a place to unload. I'd go to the park nearby and pee in the trashcan, or a storm drain, or try peeing patterns into the baseball field. The combo of peeing in a strange new place and having to pee a lot really excited me, and looking back on it, I think it was my weird proto-masturbation before I even did that. I couldn't explain it back then, but after all this time I do believe peeing is very adjacent to sexual pleasure, and a sensation that everyone can appreciate. I might also be more inclined to the sensation because I am uncut, and I believe that uncut men are more able to appreciate the feeling of peeing because of the intact nerves down there, but that's another discussion. 

But aside from what I did as a younger kid, one of my first experiences with the female anatomy was seeing a girl pee. In 6th grade, my class had a weekend-long field trip to some nature reservation, and we basically spent it going hiking and talking about biology and stuff. Obviously, the class was separated by boys and girls sleeping in different dorms, but during the daytime we maintained our groups of 3 for projects. My group was me, a friend from class, and this girl who I was also friendly with (in hindsight, she may have had a bit of a crush on me but that's irrelevant.) One afternoon, the groups were tasked with hiking around a few areas near the reservation buildings and documenting the different species we could find. Since there was a pond near the boys dorm, a lot of the groups went there to try finding frogs and fish and whatnot. My group ended up being one of the few to go into the forest looking for mushrooms and poison ivy and stuff. When we started to go more into the woods and find stuff to write down, my friend realizes that he doesn't have a pencil, and runs back to the main area to try getting one from a teacher. So it's just me and this girl (we'll call her Alison), and we slowly continue our path in the forest, and then Alison goes "is anybody around?" I say no I don't think so, and she goes "ok I have to pee" and hands me her pencil and notebook. I shockingly ask her "wait right here?" and she goes shhh and walks a few steps off the path towards a big tree. She tells me to keep watch if anyone else comes near, but I generally just sneaked peeks at her as she peed. I could see her Supergirl underwear down at her knees, and I could hear her stream splashing on the leaves, and it was really exciting. But having thought back on that before, I think the thing that really excited me the most was the candor of it. She could've made much more of an effort to go further away from me and be hidden before she peed, but she did it somewhat close to me, and didn't seem that bothered that I was around for it. It almost felt like a show of trust, and while I could be really overanalyzing that, that's something that's very sweet to me. When she finished, I could see her wiggle her butt around to shake off the drops, and she pulled her underwear and jeans back on and stepped back onto the trail. I think I was blushing when I handed her her things back, and I awkwardly said something like "I didn't know girls could pee outside alright," and she said "when you gotta go you gotta go," and then we just kept on throughout the day never mentioning it again, though I thought about it a lot to myself. 

I think that about covers my upbringing with my kink. For years, I lived with this kink in secret shame, but what needed to help me get over that was to actually talk about and enjoy what I enjoy. One of the things it took me to open up more was seeing all these other people who are into pee as much as I am. I've still never shared/enjoyed this kink with a partner before, though I'm someone who hardly dates to begin with. I've been around a few other women who have peed in front of me and it (secretly) drove me wild. But I hope to find someone who wants to play around with me like this. Maybe go on pee adventures as a couple, and though I love to watch women pee, I'm intrigued with having a woman watch me pee, and hold my cock while I do it. 

Aside from that, I just feel like I want to talk more about this thing I'm into and have a place where I can express myself about it, since I can't just up and shout about it in the store or something lol. So here I am!

 

Welcome to the forum.

I too grew up with feelings of shame about my fetish, and it was through interacting with others in places like this that finally helped me to overcome that.

For much of my adult life I was so totally in the closet that I never really shared my pee interest with anyone. And I found any kind of sexual activity rather dull without it and seldom bothered looking for it.

Now I am single and set in my ways and don't even hanker after a relationship. I don't really do dating as such.

You and I seem similar in some ways.

My guess is that - like me - you are of an age where you grew up before the internet took off, and can remember a time when it was very difficult to reach out to like-minded people. Am I correct? Certainly, it was much harder to find like-minded people to interact with before the internet.

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1 hour ago, steve25805 said:

My guess is that - like me - you are of an age where you grew up before the internet took off, and can remember a time when it was very difficult to reach out to like-minded people. Am I correct? Certainly, it was much harder to find like-minded people to interact with before the internet.

I think if I were more confident and diligent about it I could've found my way into some kinda community several years earlier. But back then, I was ashamed of it to the point of trying to not indulge that desire *at all*. I would make myself not check the imageboards and look up pee vids I liked and just stick to regular porn to try and phase it out of my sexual desire, but I always kept coming back to it. Took me way longer than it should have, but I finally realized it's not something that needs to be ridden of with oneself. 

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A slightly belated hello and welcome.  I hope you have a great time here.