Photographic memory and early visual memory

[Havelock 1,526]

Does anyone else here have a photographic memory and/or a very early visual memory? I have both and I wonder if it has contributed to my pee fetish. I have very vivid and visual memories of many things going back to what I believe is even 2 or 3 years old--surfaces, patterns, clothing, shoes, art, architecture, cars etc. As you can read from many of my recollections this includes images of pee streams, puddles and surfaces that I or others peed on from decades ago. 

Does anyone else have such strong visual memories?

[gldenwetgoose 21,497]

I've posted before about the event that I think probably started my interest - from that time of being five years old where some memories stick, but a lot are completely lost.

You know, the family holiday moments, particular Christmas gifts, particular moments in infant school.  In my case the girl I somehow walked out on the first day at school arm in arm with.  I think that was probably more of her doing than mine.  But it sort of formed a trend, me playing at her house after school at various times.

On one of those we were playing and she left the room. I went off to see where she'd gone, and saw her sitting on the toilet, legs dangling and tinkling.  And the rest as they say is history lol.   If you're reading this Jane, you shaped my life - or at least my fascination lol.

[Takashi96 1,076]

8 hours ago, Havelock said:

Does anyone else here have a photographic memory and/or a very early visual memory? I have both and I wonder if it has contributed to my pee fetish. I have very vivid and visual memories of many things going back to what I believe is even 2 or 3 years old--surfaces, patterns, clothing, shoes, art, architecture, cars etc. As you can read from many of my recollections this includes images of pee streams, puddles and surfaces that I or others peed on from decades ago. 

Does anyone else have such strong visual memories?

I have freakishly vivid long term memory going back to around 3 years old. And though people have often dismissed my claims, I've had many occasions to prove their accuracy. It's also very random, often with no rhyme or reason to why I've  retained countless insignificant memories. Such as otherwise forgettable playground conversations from 2nd grade.

Is there a correlation between our deep memories and our fetishes? Yes, I certainly believe so. In my case, it's as if I'm caught in a loop of continually discovering that girls have different genitals. Still, I don't understand why I can't just retain it as a neutral memory? As I imagine the average boy who grew up with sisters can.

Edited December 27, 2022 by Takashi96
Tablet acting the fool.

[Tem1986 11]

I know I can remember when I was 6 or 7 I had a friend that had a Hustler magazine from the late 80’s early 90’s that he had stole from his grandpa and hid under his bed along with a few other porno magazines, and I can remember exactly how his room looked and laying on the floor next to his bed between the wall to look at my favorite spread of this gorgeous brunette that was on a picnic by herself.

She was outside under some trees on a beautiful summer afternoon. She had the basket, the red and white checkered blanket, a log of summer sausage, crackers/cheese, and a bottle of wine. As the the photo spread progressed, she lost her underwear from under her miniskirt and she got further undressed, and then you can imagine what happened with the log of summer sausage, which I am surprised thinking about this now that it didn’t leave a bigger imprint on me, but then last came the picture that’s left me fascinated and burned into my brain…The last picture was of her squatting down peeing a stream onto the ground, and it was absolutely amazing to me to see this beautiful woman doing this, and learning/seeing the other sex’s anatomy at such a young age. At this point it wasn’t truly sexual, although there was something that I understood from looking at all these pictures that made me feel different and very excited to look at them. I know that this sparked my fascination with this and it has gone on ever since. I still to this day have tried to find this picture to see as an adult, but have come up empty, but I am sure it would be wild to see such an impressionable photo years later.

I can also remember at around this same time seeing a neighbor girl the same age at the same time squatting and going underneath a tree/bush. I can’t remember though if that was before or after seeing that photo, but I know that all this has led me down this path and 100% into seeing women pee since I was young, and it has just left me horny and wanting to see more and liking all aspects of the fetish…

It is kind of odd to me because I do not have a ton of memories from a young age, but can certainly remember other things, but this is one that definitely got registered in the memory bank….

[Chrissy89 1,208]

I have a very visual based memory, it’s probably contributed a lot to my fetish.  I have very clear and fond memories of my big cousin sneaking behind a tree to go and pee then seeing the puddle left behind…. I would have been about 8 or 9 at the time and I was just fascinated by it. 

 

[Takashi96 1,076]

16 hours ago, Chrissy89 said:

I have a very visual based memory, it’s probably contributed a lot to my fetish.  I have very clear and fond memories of my big cousin sneaking behind a tree to go and pee then seeing the puddle left behind…. I would have been about 8 or 9 at the time and I was just fascinated by it. 

 

Was your cousin a boy? And if so, do you think that contributed to your fascination? Or was it the audacity of peeing outside?

I was forbidden from peeing outside as a child. So when I watched a neighbor kid pee in the large cardboard box we were playing inside, I was taken aback by his shamelessness. It was almost like he didn't have parents! 

[Apollon 128]

I'm also in, very sharp pictures about the time I was 2-3. But peeing related things happened when I was 5-8.

Edit: but I don't know how freely I can write here because family members were involved.

Edited December 29, 2022 by Apollon

[gldenwetgoose 21,497]

12 minutes ago, Apollon said:

I'm also in, very sharp pictures about the time I was 2-3. But peeing related things happened when I was 5-8.

Edit: but I don't know how freely I can write here because family members were involved.

There's no problem at all writing about historic experiences whilst underage - the issue comes where underage experiences are written in a way which implies sexual thoughts or activities in relation to underage subjects.

So describing that you were fascinated by someone peeing is fine, even where that is a family member.  Saying that a current sexual connection with pee stems from an innocent childhood pee experience is also ok.  

[Chrissy89 1,208]

48 minutes ago, Takashi96 said:

Was your cousin a boy? And if so, do you think that contributed to your fascination? Or was it the audacity of peeing outside?

I was forbidden from peeing outside as a child. So when I watched a neighbor kid pee in the large cardboard box we were playing inside, I was taken aback by his shamelessness. It was almost like he didn't have parents! 

He was a boy yeah. I guess as a girl, there’s more of a forbidden nature around it than what there is of guys. It’s not that my mum or dad ever said i was forbidden, they more just encouraged that I always went back home to use the toilet. 

[Takashi96 1,076]

17 hours ago, Chrissy89 said:

He was a boy yeah. I guess as a girl, there’s more of a forbidden nature around it than what there is of guys. It’s not that my mum or dad ever said i was forbidden, they more just encouraged that I always went back home to use the toilet. 

I should rephrase that. Do you think your fascination with your cousin's puddle was more because of his  anatomical advantage? As in, being a boy he could pee more stealthily? Expose less of himself. Or was it the audacity of him just peeing where he pleased? 

[TheMiddleMaddle 151]

I remember being very young like 3 and my Dad pulling over on long car trips and he and I would pee beside the road. I remember really liking peeing outside and always wanted to after that. 

[Necro8617 123]

On 12/28/2022 at 10:20 AM, Chrissy89 said:

I have a very visual based memory, it’s probably contributed a lot to my fetish.  I have very clear and fond memories of my big cousin sneaking behind a tree to go and pee then seeing the puddle left behind…. I would have been about 8 or 9 at the time and I was just fascinated by it. 

 

Could you see his penis or was he hidden from view?

[Chrissy89 1,208]

13 hours ago, Necro8617 said:

Could you see his penis or was he hidden from view?

Nah I couldn’t, I still have memories of the sound his stream made and the puddle though…