Finally Ready To Introduce Myself As I Accept Who I Am

[Raven726 369]

Hello everyone. I have been a long time member, but I am often quiet. It is because up until recently I have been embarrassed of what I like. I thought it was because the specifics of what I like are a little outside the box (I will explain below) that porn can sometimes be hard to find. However I realized recently that there was something deeper that explains why I feel weird and guilty about my fetish. As i read comments in this community I see a lot of love for each other. I would like to become a bigger part of that and it has inspired me to finally tell my story. Those who read the whole thing will really understand who I am but i know it will be a lot to read so i understand if not everyone reads the whole thing.

Let me start from the beginning. My fist (or so I thought)experience with pee came when I was 15. I was hanging out with my friend, her parents were out of town. Being bad kids we stole a couple drinks from the liquor cabinet. Then being a little tipsy we decided it would be fun to skinny dip in her parents hot tub.  Keeping in mind We were both virgins at the time and while we had talked about masturbation with each other in the past. Neither of us anticipated how the combination of alcohol and seeing a real naked human for the first time would make us almost uncontrollably horny. After about 10 15 minutes in the hot tub she said "We need to talk"  We talked and agreed neither of us were ready for sex but it might be fun to touch each other.  I went first, i fingered her. It took her about 3 minutes to cum. Then she started on me. Ill be honest, I wanted to cum as soon as her hands were on me but i held back because i wanted to impress her. She was squirming around a bit and i wasn't sure why. suddenly without warning i saw a yellow cloud escape her crotch. At that moment I came and i mean hard. She looked down and became embarrassed. she told me she had been trying to hold it til i was done but literally had to go so bad she couldn't hold it anymore. I told her it was okay. but was to embarrassed myself to admit i liked it. Now for years I thought this was why I liked pee. It turns out I was wrong though this incident did help shape my most preferred type of pee, there was more to my story.

Flash forward to last year i was in therapy for some things and well i had a recovered memory experience. i was 12 (3 years before the hot tub) My parents hired a baby sitter as they still didn't trust me home alone. this was the only day i had this baby sitter as my grandmother usually did the babysitting but was on vacation. I had barely hit puberty at this point. My baby sitter was 17 blonde and attractive.  She had put me to bed about an hour earlier. I had gotten up to get a glass of water. As i entered the living room as I got closer i realized she was squatting on the couch and peeing on the cushion. she caught me watching her. she became nervous and angry. I must have had a noticeable boner because she made a crewed comment about it. I remember telling her i had no idea why my penis was hard as i knew nothing about sex at the time. She said she would show me why  penis was hard. she made me take off my cloths and sit in her pee puddle. She then proceeded to give me head til i came in her mouth. She then flipped the cushion and put me back to bed. She told me if i ever told anyone what happened there would be consequences. I must have blocked this out for years. looking back on it, i do find it hot but i also still feel the terrified and confused feelings i felt back then before i knew anything. Atr the ime i did not understand what was happening.

 Now to get into what i like. There are two primary things i like. the fist is weirdly specific. I like it when a woman pees on something she shouldn't to avoid an accident because there is no other choice. but it goes deeper than that. the biggest turn on for me with this is the internal struggle within the woman's head, that goes back and forth knowing she shouldn't do it til eventually she has to go so bad that her brain twists to make her think the item is an acceptable toilet. as you'd imagine this works much better as written stories. If it were a video there would have to be a lot of talking to the camera and is very hard to find. in fact over the years I've only found a hand full of videos that even come close.  now as for items obviously the common ones work carpets, couches, swimming pools, potted plants. however the more chance the item could be ruined or hold statement to someone close to the portraiture  the better, this also intensifies the internal struggle leading up to the act. in this case things like antique rugs or an urn (i know that's pushing it) is the holy grail. in addition to knowing the internal struggle that leads up to the act i also like to know how the woman feels during and after. Does she feel remorse? that sort of thing. As you can imagine porn for this is hard to find so if any ladies have stories like this or anyone has links to videos Id defiantly welcome them either in the comments or DM. Id also be open to talking to anyone open to making custom videos.  However if not its fine I'm just glad i can finally share this with you.

The second thing i like is similar same premise and item set except this time the woman does the act purely because she is too lazy to go all the way to the bathroom. This is much easier to find porn.

until now i have told a handful of people about my fetish but i have only ever explained it to one person as in depth as i am explaining it to you all. to my surprise she is a gold mine (no pun intended) for the second thing i like. I've never met a girl this lazy about going to the bathroom its amazing and luckily we have a very intimate friendship and she has no problem sharing with me when she does this. I've seen her go in person once on her bedroom carpet when i was down at her house. but every few days ill get txts "You'll never guess what i did". i even got a few txts after the last time she was at my house. one reading "I may have left a yellow stain at the foot of your bed in the middle of the night" and the other explaining that while she was IN my bathroom literally  2 feet away from a toilet. she found it more convenient to go on my bathroom rug. (an ultimate and beautiful act of laziness)

In closing to those of you who stuck this out, i hope this helps explain who i am. and i thank you for having such an open community where i can feel okay to tell you all my story. I hope to make some amazing friends here

Edited June 13, 2018 by Raven726

[spywareonya 37,961]

@Raven726

This is one of the best introductions I EVER read. First of all, you made an incredible detailed post. Second, your tastes describe an incredible sensitivity in you. Third, this one post includes a couple of the most arousing sex situations I EVER EVER EVER read in my Whole life.

I am loooking forward any contact with you so soon!!!!

[steve25805 126,029]

@Raven726, that was an awesome intro.

I absolutely love the girl who just pees wherever the fuck she likes out of lazy convenience. I very much love that sort if thing.

I love girls pissing all over the place, either for fun or because they just don't give a shit. I am known for my love of girls just pissing on the carpet.

Would love to hear more.

A very warm welcome to the forum.

[spywareonya 37,961]

17 hours ago, steve25805 said:

@Raven726, that was an awesome intro.

I absolutely love the girl who just pees wherever the fuck she likes out of lazy convenience. I very much love that sort if thing.

I love girls pissing all over the place, either for fun or because they just don't give a shit. I am known for my love of girls just pissing on the carpet.

Would love to hear more.

A very warm welcome to the forum.

Raven really got some potential...