Autumn Equinox, the Power of the Balance of Tide

[spywareonya 37,961]

7 minutes ago, Potatoman said:

 

I mean the ones that are white inside, so I’ll have to find complete ones 

thank you and I’m out for today, good night all 😊

It sounds silly, but those who are white on the inside produce an impact on the unconscious as… well... "fake"!

Good luck!!! 

[Potatoman 261]

Ok then, the ones that are needed here so the others would be wrong ones 

though they might be hard to get... anyways I’m going to try, good night for now 🙂 

[steve25805 126,021]

I think I will have to settle for one of those aroma therapy stores and make the best of it, or it wont happen this time.

[spywareonya 37,961]

6 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

I think I will have to settle for one of those aroma therapy stores and make the best of it, or it wont happen this time.

Try, indeed

[Potatoman 261]

Did it, it was great 🙂 

still drinking the wine though 😄

[steve25805 126,021]

Have managed to find some incense and black candles, and have Sunday off now. So that's the day.

 

[spywareonya 37,961]

@Potatoman

@steve25805

 

 

By any means tell me, either here or in PM, anything you want to share about it!!!!!!!!!

[steve25805 126,021]

Have drank and peed and hit a practical problem I should have thought about before.....have nothing to stand the candles in. Will figure something out. Back later....

[Potatoman 261]

I think I fucked it, did it on Friday 🤣🤣🤣

[Potatoman 261]

But it still kind of worked though, I don’t know...

[spywareonya 37,961]

9 minutes ago, Potatoman said:

fucked it

 

8 minutes ago, Potatoman said:

kind of worked

Tell me, I'll tell you

[spywareonya 37,961]

13 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

Have drank and peed and hit a practical problem I should have thought about before.....have nothing to stand the candles in. Will figure something out. Back later....

Anything goes, even pieces of some hard plastic they can be sticked upon

Elegance means little

[Potatoman 261]

24 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

have nothing to stand the candles in

I had the same problem, simply put them on a plate when they are able to stand

if not, make them able to ;)

[steve25805 126,021]

Firstly I drank my energy drinks until I needed to pee.

Then I peed against the wall in my hallway.

Then I lit the candles and used them to light the incense and placed the incense near me and the candles in three locations around me.

Immediate problem. I didn't realist this until I lit them but they were not black throughout but white inside.

Nevertheless, I persisted and kept trying to empty my mind to the point where I might be approaching a state of clear mindedness, as on the verge of sleep.

But I struggled to reach the desired degree of relaxation, unable entirely to throw off a sense of impatience which was an inharmonious feeling but tried to relax and rise up again at least ten times as required.

Then I put on some porn featuring a lady - Autumn Peach - masturbating before peeing on her hotel room carpet, sound down whilst listening to some Jean Michelle Jarre - Souvenir of China - which is quite relaxingly haunting. Both music and video were on a loop as I masturbated until I had to force myself not to cum.

Then I turned everything off and tried to visualise the frozen landscape and snow, and the ice queen, white robed, long blonde hair, bright blue eyes. 

I struggled to visualise this as clearly as I would have liked and found it hard to divert my mind from horny thoughts. At one point, as I tried to visualise the ice queen with her pale face and blue eyes, for some reason my mind began to imagine her face taking on the appearance of a skull which was disturbing so I had to force my mind away from imagining that. No idea why that came to me, but any enlightenment from you on that, @spywareonya, would be welcome. Because I don't think that was supposed to happen.

After a short time I switched to visualising the red velvet background, with girls all around pissing on carpets and against walls, guys pissing against walls. People pissing on each other, and Lilith and I enjoying the pleasures of another female in ways that cant really be spoken about on this forum. Whilst imagining all these things I masturbated and came. 

I did notice that when I stood up my head was spinning, I felt a bit dizzy and slightly ethereal, very light on my feet. It was a bit weird but it passed after a minute or so, and I drank some more of my chosen drink and am now cooking my meal which should be ready soon.

Not sure if I was supposed to notice anything else apart from this. The candles were not ideal to start with, being white inside.

[steve25805 126,021]

I should add that I am not feeling my best due to a bit of a cold.

So whether or not that has mattered I don't know.

[spywareonya 37,961]

27 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

they were not black throughout but white inside.

Nevertheless, I persisted

Better then if they were utterly black and you missed such a chance of moral firmness

 

27 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

sense of impatience which was an inharmonious feeling

Absolutely normal

 

28 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

Autumn Peach

Love her myself!

 

28 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

were on a loop

A trick I use myself sometimes!

 

29 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

found it hard to divert my mind from horny thoughts

Yes, it works like that, I understand perfectly

 

29 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

her face taking on the appearance of a skull

Holy MOTHERFUCKING SHIT

I NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT THAT FACT THAT SHE ACTUALLY DOES THIS

It means it was not a symbol

YOU FUCKING CONTACTED HER ACTUALLY

She saw you

They saw you

Holy fuck

 

30 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

Because I don't think that was supposed to happen.

It wasn't as I supposed She would have just used the image you crafted of Her to manifest and tenderly caress you

If She did that, it means She took this ritual as a full contact

I'm speechless

 

 

 

 

32 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

 in ways that cant really be spoken about on this forum

 

Yes, She plays these games

There is NOTHING She judges in fantasies, and very little She shuns in real life, either

 

32 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

 my head was spinning, I felt a bit dizzy and slightly ethereal

 

Perfect

 

9 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

cold

 

It only made you more sensitive to the ritual

 

9 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

So whether or not that has mattered I don't know.

No, or better said, no problem

 

 

 

Steve, holy shit

I will have to summon Her and ask feedback for you

Absurd

Marvellous

 

 

[steve25805 126,021]

An update

Having looked at them in broad daylight, I see that actually the candles ARE black throughout. I think when melting hot the wax grew pale and whitish which fooled me. But even though burned down a bit they are clearly black throughout with no white visible. And all the melted wax is black now it has cooled.

So the candles were ok after all.

If Lilith contacted me, what does that portend? What does it mean? Is this going to have a significant impact upon my life?

And was it a one off or will we connect again?

[spywareonya 37,961]

3 hours ago, steve25805 said:

Having looked at them in broad daylight, I see that actually the candles ARE black throughout. I think when melting hot the wax grew pale and whitish which fooled me. But even though burned down a bit they are clearly black throughout with no white visible. And all the melted wax is black now it has cooled.

So the candles were ok after all.

Ok, this is another thing which had been told to happen around Them

They are somehow chained to perfection (in real Occult we use the quantistic word "Clinch" to indicate a an entanglement which Always forces chances toward the best outcome) yet They somehoe make you (or it "happens"... if you see what I mean) think things had, or will, go bad, as a test for moral firmness, not to test you, but to embetter you, while indeed all was ok

Lack is the core of improvement and this is a truth not even They can deny, but since They are happiness and perfection They cannot actually handle lack like it was something good (unless it's a punishment)

 

3 hours ago, steve25805 said:

If Lilith contacted me, what does that portend? What does it mean? Is this going to have a significant impact upon my life?

And was it a one off or will we connect again?

The astrological positions you are gonna have, are deep

It was mandatory for "something" to happen sooner or later

Her contact will mean that you are undergoing a process of cleansing from unconscious, unsolved issues, eliminating them or simply getting better

To contact Her again is up to your will as She is not gonna push you

Further contacts will empower your self knowledge and the overall sensation of your unconscious being cuddled while it exorcises its demons, but will also speed up such cleansing, thus making sad memories to pop up from the total oblivion, She says it's Always toward a final sensation of happiness and cleaness, but She agrees not to overdo

If you plan to contact Her again I'll simply ask Her

[steve25805 126,021]

Not sure how to go about contacting her again, but don't want to rush it anyway. Let's let things settle down for a while.

Then maybe return to it.

[spywareonya 37,961]

52 minutes ago, steve25805 said:

Not sure how to go about contacting her again, but don't want to rush it anyway. Let's let things settle down for a while.

Then maybe return to it.

Absolutely agree