Brutus

47 minutes ago, spywareonya said:

Let's just hope it won't go that way

I will fight for sure

I have faced Death before and I am ready to go on until the bitter end

What is life, if you don't live free????

 

I just hope it won't be necessary

I am slowly starting to love my violence-less life

Regardless, let's be prepared to face the very real possibility that we may be nearing our final days of being able to share ourselves with like-minded friends on this site, or any like it. And should we be separated, let's make sure we never forget the fun we had here.

7 minutes ago, spywareonya said:

They know people would get angry then

Dictatorship knows nowaday people would rebel… they will do something smooth… I am not even sure they will really apply this new law… but just in case, we will fight them on the Hills… we will fight them on the shores… we will never surrender

You are speaking to a former anarchist almost-terrorist, in the end

You would be willing to fight, but you are not most people. Most people will bury their heads in the sand and ignore government closing in on their autonomy right up to the moment they are at their knees with gun to head being executed. It's human nature. Slaves vastly outnumber masters and yet slavery thrives, now in the form we are starting to see in modern day.

I guess this is a good place to jump back into the forum.

This is not about protecting children at all. It's the advancing of dictatorship by building a police state, as you all suspected. By making you register, you have to reveal yourself and then they can find you and arrest you for expressing the wrong opinion. It will spread across developed nations soon enough. World governments will likely join forces as one to enforce it, even crippling VPN's eventually.

I just logged back in to show appreciation to the incredible responses and to tie a few things up.

Thank you all so much!

Hope to return one day. 

I would say that YouTube is your best source because you need to see it done in real time, so what better than a video? I have also watched some art tutorial videos to help with things like shading techniques, drawing in perspective and also realistic hair and clothing wrinkles. 

What I can say is don't limit yourself to one channel. Different artists have different nuances that another artist may not prefer or think of, but would be great for you. Little things like where to begin the sketch, proportion methods, everyone is slightly different and it's better to see multiple ways of doing it to find the method that fits you. Not all artists are good teachers because they're so good, they skip important tips that beginners simply don't know. Don't overload yourself with trying to get better in all areas at once though. I recommend to pick one thing you want to improve, and watch 3 or 4 videos from different people to really let it sink in and practice on that one thing. Then move on to a different weakness. 

Another tip I've used to is to simply replicate pictures. Want to draw a lion? Pull up a picture of one and just recreate it. Once it's in your muscle memory, you can draw lions. Same for other things. 

Also, invest in an actual art kit that has the pencils you need. You can find basic kits for under 10 dollars easily. The different weight of each pencil really improves whatever you're doing. Mechanical pencils for writing are no good. I mean you can draw with them but you they are a serious handicap. I didn't think it mattered until I bought one. The improvement was immediately noticeable.

5 hours ago, gldenwetgoose said:

Tell me to wind my neck in and that it’s none of my business - I’m not going to make a call on ‘cheating’, but if you carried out some of these actions and were caught it could be seriously life changing. 

I know we all have our fantasies and they’re all different - and thinking it doesn’t mean we are actually doing it... 

That said, certainly in the UK being prosecuted after being caught recording someone even in a changing room let alone a toilet would have severe consequences on your liberty, employment prospects and role in society. 

Very true. I'll admit that I have split feelings about it. On one hand, someone's perceived privacy would be violated, which could result in criminal charge. On the other hand, the fetishist in me wants so bad to at least hear this woman in action. Difficult to reconcile such opposing interests.

If he does get a recording, I will certainly enjoy it. If he decides not to for fear of ramification, I have zero complaints, given the risk.

20 hours ago, Ponme said:

Struck gold lolol  if I was single and had the guts to ask, i would love to get a golden shower by her.

I would never use my phone to use to record it.. too risky and big. I do have a tiny device that I bought a while back because my neighbor use to dump his junk on my yard. I eventually caught and faced him. Anyways, if i can remember where i put it, i can try to locate a place hidden enough to hear and that i don't get in trouble and lose my job..ect

Can i upload mp3 or videos here?

Sure if it's small enough, that could work.

Yes you can upload here. I'm not sure how to if it's not a link to another site, but I know other members upload their own personal recordings. You could look around for a topic, ask others or the mods.

18 hours ago, Ponme said:

Hey bud thank you for the interest in my experience.

I wish I had more details, unfortunately, threw a freakin wall...    It sounds like a deep hissing sound but with wisper because of the wall I presume. It is loud when splashing in the toilet everytime I can hear.

I would like to get a device to record the audio, except i would be worried that she finds it.. i don't want trouble.

About the blue colors, she does not like them because they are a bunch of slackers, and never get work done right and she is stuck deal with them. So maybe she has hate issues.

To answer your question about if she does it on purpose, I don't have an answer for that. If I can can describe her personality in general, she loves her job and is very pro active and has energy. Lets say we talk about the main boss giving her more work or other things to do. She replies such as: its not my job. Find someone else to do it. Like her and another department boss don't get along. I hear things such as: oh he wants to play that game, and she will purposely mess with his schedule to piss him off.

I don't have any problems at all with her, I believe she see's me as, i get shit done and when she needs something, she can rely on me. 

 

Ahh...okay. She's not afraid to assert herself. Definitely confident. I was going to ask if you'd considered recording her but it is indeed risky and I probably wouldn't try it either. 

Still, I know the frustration of knowing a female coworker is big pisser and wanting to hear it for real, no walls or doors blocking the sound. If she can be heard through a wall at all, just imagine how hard she must be releasing and how loud it really is...

You struck gold here either way just hearing what little you can and of course having access to her leftovers.

On 11/5/2018 at 9:47 PM, Ponme said:

I have to agree with Brutus and i can personally say, i like coming here and share my stories and experiences so that it might be helpful ideas or different ways of expressing and communicating.

 

 

And they are appreciated. This is a unique and ongoing real-time occurrence that I want to hear more about, for as long as you wish to update it. To bring this back to your story, I wanted to ask does her pee sound like a heavy deep pitched rumble in the water, or more of a loud spraying sound and/or hiss?

Based on what she said about giving the blue colors something to do, it seems that she either messes the seat on purpose and gets a thrill, or at the least, is aware of her daily transgressions needing cleaned and truly does not care, like she believes that being concerned about it is beneath her. Seems she has a highly elitist attitude, to think that her piss serves as something for them to make themselves useful. You think she does it on purpose,  maybe as a "fuck you"?

On 11/2/2018 at 11:02 PM, 2prnot2p said:

No offense intended, but it's so gross that you'd do that!  Forget the whole issue of cheating.  Sorry, but that's my opinion.  I doubt that I'm alone on this.  Yuk!  Actually, it's downright disgusting.  Plus, we don't even know if it's true.  The whole scenario could be fictional.  How would we know?  I urge readers to be skeptical on this one, for sure.

Haha!!

Well I would bet that you aren't alone in your opinion! Many members probably read this story and thought "Okay fuck this guy, I'm outta here" but never forget that your harsh judgement here is the same thing society would say about all of us for having any variant of a pee fetish, including yours. They would say "Yuk and disgusting" at you for simply being here. His enjoyment of pee doesn't have to match yours. Seat licking is a popular niche of the fetish.

As far as knowing if it's true, how would we know that anything posted here by anyone is true? It's easy to make up a fake true story if someone felt like it. I know for a fact that another member here posted something fake as if it was a true experience but only because they got a bit careless. It's not worth considering. It's almost impossible to prove anything as true or false here. Anything could be fictional.

Now I'm not here to silence you. You certainly are free to express your opinion of being disgusted at others' contributions if that's what you desire, but it only serves to damage the forum's spirit of live and let live. I happen to enjoy this story and want to hear more of it. I would hope that you can see how such negativity was simply unnecessary.

20 hours ago, Ponme said:

Brutus, sorry for the late reply as I don't come here daily. I can always try to take a picture, the lighting is dim so it might not be great.

That seat is clean when I am done with it, just the seat, the rest I wipe off with a cloth. We are not talking sprinkles.. it is covered with drops and splashes. I actually paid attention how many times it is getting used. My head boss shows up at 8h30am and uses it before she goes to yoga and she is quite fit as a boss and she's 42. Then she doesn't go back to that washroom until the end of the day. Which she has told me that the seat was in bad condition which she had to use the mens washroom on several occasions.

The lifeguard head boss in question, she's 24 and is so sexy and beautiful. When she wears leggings or in her swimsuit, I try to stick around because it is a turn on just looking at her. She comes in at around 10am and seems to always go to the washroom at the same times. I actually wash well the seat before she walks in and before 2pm which is the time she goes back. I can tell you, the seat is a complete mess so i don't mind liking all of it. Been doing it for a while.

 

 

Man that sounds awesome, she destroys it every damn time and leaves it for someone else. She knows her piss is spraying everywhere. You said the rest you wipe with a cloth, is she pissing on the floor as well?? It must be quite a mess if the other woman wont even use it.

Yes if you could snap a few pictures of her damage before you lick it up, that would be beautiful.

11 hours ago, ZooeyGlass said:

Yep that sounds about right. And if it was 2002 I was 13 then. I wish I could find that clip online. It probably is nothing but I still want to see it again since it was such a big trigger for me and my kink today. 

I actually used to have it on VHS. They played it a handful of times and I made damn sure to record it, but I lost the tape many years ago. Had some Real Sex episodes on it too. I've also tried to track Shock Video down online from time to time and so far, no luck. It's out there, everything is, just need a stroke of luck to find it. This is part of why I was considering diving into the deep web a while ago. 

It would help if you gave us details that lead to the current state. There can be a lot of things that need addressed that either person could've contributed to, like maybe some hurtful things said or done that haven't been resolved, old resentments that have grown, stress from work and family, age, health issues, different attitudes toward sex, boredom from the same sexual routine, feelings of neglect, feeling taken for granted, maybe one person let themselves go physically, an affair occurred, erectile dysfunction, loss of love, depression, his testosterone could be low. the list of potential reasons is endless. Maybe he feels too much pressure to perform. Also, a lot of men stop initiating because they think their wives aren't interested. Or they feel that it's too much effort to get their wives in the mood.

So many possibilities. 

What did your attempts to rekindle involve, and why did you give up?

19 hours ago, Ponme said:

Hi everyone and thank you for all your comments and feedbacks.

First, this young woman I work with has a boyfriend, so I am not hitting on her nor am I interested. I personally agree with Brutus, it's not cheating and I'm not having physical contact with her.

Regarding the toilet, I work as a cleaner in a sport center. She always uses the same washroom with a single toilet bowl. I actually know around what time she uses the washroom, so I clean the seat before. The walls are thin and when I enter the singles men wasroom at the end of a corner hallway, (more for the office staff) which its, her, boss of the aquatic, my female head boss and the receptionist that uses it. I actually listen in with my ear against the wall and she sounds like a massive torrent to a point that I don't even need to lean in to hear. What suprised me, she told me that she dislikes sitting on public toilets, so she hovers. That being said, she doesn't seem to wipe the seat even knowing the my head boss uses it.

I can say for a fact that the pee on the seat is still warm after she left and I go in. To be honest, i have been tasting her pee for about 2 years now. It excites me because not long after, I go and chat with her asking if there's anything that needs to be done on the pool deck. Call it a crush, a turn on, an obsession, it does stop there and I would not be drawn to date or try to pursue a sexual encounter.

 

Well at least you can ensure it's clean before she uses it. How much does she leave on the seat, a few sprinkles or a big mess? I'm curios as to how much of a "drink" you're getting here!

16 hours ago, Sephora said:

Oh my, the details here lololol

I personally feel that if I was to find out that my husband was licking the pee from a toilet seat from a work college, I don't think it would turn out well. Not only that I would be angry, I would start questioning and worry if this will go any further. Then try to imagine if I happen to see this person at a Christmas party, knowing she had nothing to do with it, her presents would bother me. There's a difference between looking someone peeing and getting horny in the moment. To me, thats getting horny in the moment. Yes I do stare at guys asses at the gym, however I don't get horny about it.

It is what it is, I just hope for your sakes you don't get caught or your girlfriend finds out. Be careful please.

 

 

 

This is one of those moments where the differences between men and women shows itself. I won't speak for all men, but usually, seeing a woman peeing (for those of us with a pee fetish) equals being horny in that moment. Watching a pee video, or hearing a woman peeing through a restroom door is a definite arousal. Women can very easily admire physical aspects of a man without being aroused, as you mentioned you do at the gym. This isn't the case for most men. For us, seeing a woman's ass is something that will often cause arousal. However at the same time, you have to understand that as men, we are used to managing this sensitivity and keep random sources of arousal from causing pursuit and separate from love toward the woman we are with. Those random sources of arousal are literally everywhere, all day long for us because the female form is all that is required to turn us on. Heels, tight shorts, leggings, short skirts, visible cleavage don't make it any easier. Constant sources of arousal for men. It can be torture, especially during puberty, but it's a burden that we are well used to managing by the time we reach adulthood, and gets easier with age.

4 hours ago, ZooeyGlass said:

As kids we used to go around our neighborhood and all pee behind bushes and trees and what not. It was just a common thing to do, but I always really liked it. I purposely would hold it or drink way too much liquids so I could pee outside while playing. 

Then, when I was in the 11-13 range I saw a special on HBO called something like shock video that featured sex shows from around the world. One of them was from japan and involved women peeing down these elaborate slides or something. Whoever filled up the thing at the bottom first, or maybe whatever team, won I think and that absolutely changed me. I watched it every time it was on, including one night when I couldn’t sleep at a friends during a sleepover. His family had HBO too and I was just flipping through channels on low and found the beginning of it and eagerly waited for the pee part to come up. 

Holy shit, yes I watched Shock Video on HBO as well. I remember that bit about the Japanese girls peeing down those pipes. That was the first time I realized that Japanese women seem to have big bladders. There were at least 2 of those documentaries, and I'm almost certain that one was Shock Video 2002. It also had another scene where a guy was enjoying sex with his new wife after their wedding and then she goes to the bathroom to pee. He crawls over and peeks in, seeing her standing over it like a man. It was fake and the actress was probably holding a water bottle or something, but still it was the first time I was introduced to the idea of a trans woman, which I previously had no knowledge of, being that I was like 13 at the time.

9 hours ago, UnauthorisedGuy said:

Does this mean your office only has one restroom which is used by both men and women? Sorry, I realise this isn't the main point of your story, but I'm really curious.

No. Mens and women's separate, but right next to each other. I came out of the mens a few seconds after she came from the womens, so that's how I ended up walking right behind her.

4 hours ago, ZooeyGlass said:

Really? Never ventured that far down the rabbit hole. Why? What’s the rationale? And why is it so troll-filled? 

It's a free for all, good bad and ugly. I never messed around in the forums, but I submitted a few stories about a year ago, and OMG, the trolling is strong as the Hulk in full rage. I mean it's STRONG. But I'm okay with that, I support free speech, no matter how offensive. People comment, and some are supportive, others offer constructive criticism that is helpful, and others are out to drive you to suicide. They tore my stories to complete shit, to the point of insulting me on a personal level like I owed them money. I wanted the harsh criticism from authentic critics though and it did help me improve as a writer. Also got a super fan that was begging me to write more, so I certainly had some good come out of it. On the other hand, I also had a bad experience with an editor as well. She took days to respond, and eventually just ignored my questions and ghosted, but I could tell she was kind of a bitch from the start. The questions she did answer had very anemic answers, no quality guidance at all and very dismissive. I just self edit now. Time consuming, but worth it for me. I might return to the site at some point, but the whole experience soured me to a large degree.

On the way home from work, I was sitting at a red light of a high traffic 4 way intersection. It wasn't quite the highway part, but close enough that people usually drive at near highway speeds. As I was sitting there waiting, I saw a little girl, maybe 7 or 8 years old, bundled up in her coat, carrying her school backpack, all alone as she was crossing the 2 lanes of this busy road. When she got to the other side, she was struggling to find footing in the grass, because there was no sidewalk. It's dangerous even for adults to walk along this stretch of road since there is so much traffic and nowhere to really walk safely. She just kept hustling along like it was her daily routine, like she was used to having to do this. The saddest part is when I realized how far she had to walk. There are no houses for nearly a mile in any direction she was headed. Either she turned right and walked a mile up a real highway with a speed limit of 55 mph, or turned left and crossed a quarter mile bridge into town, and then walked who knows how far through town to get home. It was a dangerous and long journey no matter where she was going. When the light turned green, I drove past and looked over at her, seeing that she was holding her hood in place because it was cold and windy, looking back at traffic as she walked, waiting for the right moment to step onto the side of the road from where the grass ended. It genuinely breaks my heart to see children enduring adult circumstances, and this was one of those moments. Where were her parents, why was she walking by herself on the highway, in the cold? It happened so fast, and after getting home, I don't know what I should've done. Pulling over to help would be dangerous because of the fast traffic behind me, plus an unfamiliar man most likely would've scared her, which is the best reaction she can have with a stranger anyway. Maybe I should've called the police and let them deal with it. 

Regardless, it was one of those things that catches you so off guard that only after the fact, can you think through it. The kind of thing that can make you cry. Ignorance is bliss, and children all over the world certainly suffer worse, which is easily ignored by people that don't deal with it,  but seeing something like this in front of you shakes you right out of your "out of sight, out of mind" state of being. I hate that I didn't know how to help her. She'll be a tough woman one day, but I still don't like what I saw.

I have an electronic drum machine that I've made some music on, but I need to invest in a proper pc and DAW software to actually create polished finished music, which would be a blend of electronic, jazz, lounge and downtempo. I played the recorder eons ago when I was a kid, but I definitely want to learn piano, as that is my favorite and saxophone is a close second that I like to learn. Being able to play jazz improv on piano is all I would need in life from that point on!

Another instrument I love is jazz trumpet, love the sound of a trumpet with a mute for that "wah wah" sound they make.

"They say most of your brain shuts down in cryo sleep...all but the primitive side, the animal side"

At work, we are currently in the midst of our annual financial audit. They are new to our company this year and as such are really questioning everything. The head auditor, Kayla is quite a sight to see. She's on the taller side, curvy brunette, usually wears black pant suits, high heels and glasses. She's young, probably late 20's. I'm very attracted to her and on a few occasions over the past month, I've come out of the restroom right after her, (haven't heard her peeing yet, keep missing on her way in) so I was able to literally stare at her ass for a few seconds, until she turned back into our conference room where the auditing team is set up. Her pants are very tight, and it's easy to tell that she wears thongs if anything and I was able to see that for myself last week when I was standing over her as she was explaining a question to me while seated at her laptop. At one point she reached over to grab some papers, her top lifted up a few inches at the back and boom, black thong whale-tail in plain view. Absolutely loved it!

That's not the main point of this post though. I actually saw her pubic mound today! She came in my office and took a seat next to me to semi interrogate me on some of our accounting errors, being as nice about it as she could. So I'm looking at her laptop screen at the spreadsheet she was showing me and noticed when she scooted closer and was sitting in a manspread position, with her legs open, that her fly was open, and showing her shaved pale skinned pubic mound through the opening! I got super nervous, couldn't believe my eyes. She noticed my body language change and asked if I was okay. I laughed and said "Your uh, your pants aren't zipped." She gasped, looked down and immediately zipped them up. Let me tell you how red her face got! This woman damn near had a heart attack, she was so embarrassed! She knew she had been caught not only just with her zipper down, but caught going commando, no damn underwear! She started breathing fast and stuttering afterward, and forgot what she was asking me. I think my laughter helped put her at ease. I kept saying it's okay, no big deal, but I was smiling in a way that probably revealed that I loved what I saw in there. Eventually she got herself together and finished her questions and we were both laughing, although I'm sure her laughter was a coping mechanism. I said don't worry, I won't tell anyone. Well I lied, because I'm telling you all!

If you're not attracted to men at all, then you're not gay. Admiring a dick is not the same as desiring one. Like I can enjoy watching a hot woman blowing a guy. Part of the enjoyment is seeing her handle it and using it to pleasure herself, especially if it's a big one. As men, we naturally measure our worth against other guys in this way, but it stems from wanting to please a woman, so when you see a well-endowed guy making a woman melt, it's a guilty pleasure as an observer. It can be intimidating to be around a guy that you know is bigger, if maybe you saw him at a urinal and got a glimpse of his donkey dick. But then it makes the woman he's with that much sexier because you know she's enjoying it, so in a twisted way it makes that woman seem more man than you, because she can take a man that is "manlier" than you. It makes her seem out of your league, and we tend to want what we can't have. Even if you're hung, we still wonder, does she want a bigger one, just like how women are always worried that other women are more attractive to her man and if he desires them more.

I don't know if this perspective applies to you, but for me, it's not so much seeing the dick itself, but seeing the woman experiencing pleasure from it. Genitals in general though are just such a visceral sight because they are usually unseen, so when you see a woman unzip a guys pants and pull it out, seeing it grow in her hand, it just grabs your focus.