Long-time wetter, first time caller

[theartfultadger 10]

Hi everyone, I'm a long-time pee lover who had forgotten how much I enjoy it. I used to read Patches' Place back in college and have peed on myself and in places I shouldn't on and off since then, but hadn't done more than pee (not even on myself) in the shower for years.

Then about a month ago, I got stuck in a remote meeting I had forgotten about and really had to go to the bathroom, but couldn't leave, so eventually I wet myself a little to make it to the end. I told my wife it was an accident and I guessed my old man prostate meant I couldn't hold it as long as I used to. But I couldn't stop thinking about it, so I wet myself a few more times over the next couple of weeks. Eventually one day I filmed peeing on myself several times while working; then that evening after my wife went to bed, I sat in the recliner in my office and filmed as I went all over myself; and finally, the next day I stood in our bathroom and filmed myself emptying a full bladder into my pants, then doing a load of laundry to cover it up.

The next day, my wife asked if I had washed two pairs of jeans, and so I said that the watersports fantasies I'd told her about years ago weren't just fantasies, that I'd been peeing on myself since before we met, and I showed her the videos. She's a bit grossed out I think, but given that I've only ever done anything alone, she was understanding, which was a relief.

To be honest, it's not so much a fetish or sexual for me, I just enjoy it. It's relaxing and relieves my stress. I like the control of holding it in, the tension building up, and then the warm release when I let go. I don't know if I'll ever get her to pee on me (she said maybe in the shower so we can rinse right off, but I don't want to make her do anything she's not comfortable with), but it's nice that it's not just my secret anymore.

[nutinfancy 550]

Welcome to PeeFans!! I feel you on the relaxing and stress relief!!

Thanks for sharing your journey here!

[MidoriLemonade85 2,350]

Sounds wonderful! I originally came here because I liked the naughty, destructive stress relief of wetting and peeing somewhere other than a toilet. Then I found the spiritual, loving side of it and yes, relaxing side. Good you could be honest with her. Welcome. 💚

[Adyguy6970 869]

Hi and welcome.  I too have fond memories of Patches Place.  Glad you were able to open up to your wife about the watersports interest and she was receptive.