I'm so sorry to hear of your experience. People can be cruel. Please see my post. I've told 4 women over the years, and one was intensely receptive, one moderately so, one lukewarm, and one a plain no.
I hope you will find the courage to tell your husband. You're not disgusting at all, but very exciting. Anyone here would be happy to write experiences for you, tell you stories, or anything else.