Well, that was a special, I wanted to do a big one for a first post here.
I needed to go, like, it wouldn't have been a good idea to keep holding on for the 30 minute train ride home, but I consider myself an experienced holder, I can pace myself, and wouldn't say I was about to wet myself or anything LOL.
I'm not particularly into extreme desperation, there's a sweet spot where I'm full and it feels good, but I don't like going further to the point where it's really super uncomfortable, which might have happened had I continued holding on for the train trip.
So yes, I guess it was a hug