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On 2/5/2019 at 4:59 PM, Raven726 said:

Not at all what I'm trying to do here. I'm not looking for sympathy or attention at all. I'm sorry if you or any one else feels that way.  I'm just dealing with something that has messed me up for a long Time. Something I can not discuss with most of my normal friends or family minus the one mentioned in this post. I simply thought this would be a good place to open up about what I've been struggling with. 

I am sorry this happened to you. But on the up side your into pee, and a lovely person. :-))

On 2/11/2019 at 6:24 AM, spywareonya said:

Last year, after a roaring start, something happened. During January, I began to be ignored, surpassed by some other contents that were offering something more immediately enjoyable than mine, and this hurt me, yet without realizing why. I left, offended that people were failing to realize the true meaning of what I was giving to this forum… the funny thing, is that gun-to-the-head, it wasn't exactly clear not even to me...

 

I never stopped logging it, but I stopped to post, until late Spring. After being back, it was quite obvious to me that the persons that overrun me into people's hearts weren't a rising star, but a shooting star, and indeed I never heard of them again. The point is not them. They did nothing to undermine me. The point is that I failed to make people understand I was giving something precious, more than the actual pics. I needed a balanced response to what I gave.

 

But why? Why people should have cheered me up that much? 

 

It may sound just Ego. But it isn't. I was a woman on a mission. I just hadn't realized it yet. I was blinded by personal anxieties that were fueling my desires… but though they were INDEED part of my craving… they were NOT the core. At the beginning, I failed to realize it.

 

I thought it was need for self-validation. Admin helped me going much Beyond all of that.He provided something that in psychology is called "positive diffractor", it means somebody that, though deeply loving you, doesn't give you what you yell for, in order for you to understand that you are just illuding yourself, and what you crave for is just a mask for something else.

I did not need glory. I needed visibility, and control over the amount of it I was getting. Still, I couldn't grasp the reasons behind my passionate craving.

 

Helped and sorrounded by my friend, among which I can list tens of persons, but above all Steve, Scot, Sophie, FannyWatcher, MarkJ, Bpb and many Others, I plunged into myself to confute my deep unconscious… life also forced my hand. I underwent a mourning during November, and the bankrupt of the society I have been working under for years, in December, that's also why I have been absent in those months.

 

Now, I am a completely different person, and I know why I am here. I know what I want from this forum, and from my life. I know why I left upon failing to obtain it last Winter, and why sometimes I feel like I have been losing interest in logging in as I have been almost completely ignored since I have been back at the beginning of the year.

Never let people offend you ! We love you and enjoy your posts :-)

Hello Katheryn

Welcome hope you enjoy :-)

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Wow another Linux user yay

If my internet connection wasn't so terrible I'd probably give it a whirl, but I've estimated it would probably take a whole day just to download. I think I'll stick with linux.

Way to go dude

HOT HOT ur lucky husband :-)

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hello all :)