Deanna Lydia

Hi, welcome, I just joined too.  And I make it a point to be wet when I read/post on this forum.

I've always found it very difficult to pee in front of anyone (including in the mens' room) so I invariably use a stall and sit, pee, and sometimes thing about how I'd rather be at home, still wearing my pants.  While there are medical explanations for why a man might do this, all I know is that it took a very long time to even be able to use a public restroom.  Keep in mind, it was always on my mind that "I'd rather be at home, and peeing in my pants" and that doesn't help.  I know people make fun of men who sit to pee, but... well, considering I'm wearing a silk bra and camisole while I keep my pants on so I can wear my piss... go ahead, make fun of me.  At least I have accepted what turns me on and am enjoying it.  🙂

I love to pee in my pants, and I love to piss in my pants.  If one or the other word is more degrading, I like it for that reason since I feel very degraded and humiliated when I pee/piss my pants.  When I was younger, I always thought "wet my pants" was degrading/humiliating - but then, no matter what it's called, sitting in urine-soaked pants and just hanging out and enjoying it is degrading enough that I think the words should fit how I feel.  😉

Thanks - I've never felt welcome or able to talk about this with anyone, so it's great to be in contact with other folks who like the same thing.  At some point I learned that no matter how rare you think your own kink is, there are a LOT of similar people out there - I just couldn't open up to anyone (well, one girlfriend) and certainly wasn't about to just open up about it.  She never peed on me, but I did have her pee into a wine glass once so I could drink it (I know, you're not supposed to do that, even if you like pee).

I was really just reading up on golden showers - or more specifically, "why do I like peeing in my pants, or being peed on?" - that was the first search term (for some odd reason, I suddenly wanted to read about it, even though I've been doing it to myself for as long as I can remember).  Somewhere in my reading I found a URL to this site and decided to check it out, and almost immediately joined hoping to talk to other people who are into the same thing.  I'm glad I found this site and I want to share and learn about what it is that turns other people on about it.