Mine started when I was like 4... I never saw myself as a girl and watching boys always fascinated me, I wanted to be cool like them. I lived on a small and old city, so it was frequent to see boys pissing on walls and fields there. Even at that age I got excited by seeing that, just the thought that they were putting their penis out of their pants was awesome (my mother always was VERY strict about me seeing anything related to sex or nudity) and I deeply wish I could do the same. However, I went through bad experiences, where I needed to use a restroom VERY BADLY and I "couldn't" because "I
