The real reason why I left peefans

[ABBYPEEGODDESS 960]

I know my title sounds like a YouTuber video title. 
 

I wanted to write for the people in our beautiful community who have been asking why left. 

But I’m writing this to be completely open and honest with you guys, gals, and LGBTQ+ friends. 
 

I’m also not writing this for sympathy from anyone but to spread awareness to depression and anxiety which can lead suicidal thoughts. 
 

A couple months before I left pee fans originally I wrote a topic call “Depression But Growth.” Which was erased with all my other experiences that topic was my experiences with depression and anxiety which I have suffered with my whole life. 
 

So the real reason I left was I was in a Toxic relationship which ended up with my ex partner cheating on me. I was very heart broken and I thought I wasn’t worth anything so I went on a self destruction path drinking every day not caring anymore for a whole week straight. Until the end of the weekend on Sunday I decided I didn’t want to be alive anymore until my mom came back from work she found me about to do something stupid and stopped me I went to a mental health clinic for a week where the help me reevaluate my life. 
 

Thanks to my therapist I can tell my story to you guys my beautiful pee community of friends.

Everyday is a up hill battle for me but I will take it one step at a time. 
 

If anybody is feeling depressed please reach out to your family, friends, etc. I’m also here to listen to anyone my dms are always open for anyone looking for a chat.

 

Love yourselves and take care, 

ABBYPEEGODDESS

[WetDreamer 20,709]

Thank goodness your mother found you and was able to stop you @ABBYPEEGODDESS.

You have turned the corner and will be a stronger person after this.

Take time to be yourself and enjoy what the future brings you.

[Adyguy6970 787]

Thanks for sharing. It sounds as though you've been in a tough place.  Hopefully things will improve for you from now on.  If you're need to chat, please don't hesitate to message.  

[WetMart 937]

You have been through a very tough time. I am sure things will get better for you and I have always found if you take each day as it comes it helps to get through a lot. 

[fourluvclover 180]

I'm so sorry to hear you went through that. What an awful situation, but I'm glad you were able to get the help you needed. 💖

[gldenwetgoose 18,984]

When I read the title I was worrying a little that something had happened inside Peefans (which we WOULD have gladly dealt with).

But instead something much more important - YOU.   We are all here for you.  Any time you or anyone else finds themselves feeling alone, down or lonely, the Peefans family are here.  Let's face it, we all have a pretty unique bond and it's a common theme that there's not many in the real world that share.

We're all here for you.   And thank you for being brave enough to discuss it.

[Maclir 821]

Knowing someone you love has cheated on you is devastating - I got through something similar only with the support of some really good, life-long friends.  I'm glad you made it through, and I'm sure you are a stronger and better person for it.  Welcome back.

[ABBYPEEGODDESS 960]

Thank you all your all are amazing. I’m touched and moved by your comments 

[Scot_Lover 1,702]

Thank you, Abby, for sharing your tough time. So sorry you went through this, our hearts are with you. 
 

Sorry if my question in your ‘Ask me anything’ thread was out of line.

Welcome back.

Scot_Lover and M

 

[AWN_84 1,243]

I am sorry Abby! Betrayal is the worst thing in the world, i have been there, twice! Now i rather be alone because either there is an issue with me, or i am really unlucky in love. It is bad, but you learn to live with it, but sometimes it scars you for life, sending all positive vibes your way my dear!

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[Kupar 11,206]

My heart goes out to you Abby ❤️. Take your time and things will get better. We are here for you if you need us. 

x

[Alfresco 10,496]

My wife suffered severe depression leading to self harm and a prolonged stay in a specialist establishment, so I am well aware of how serious depression is and how it can affect people.

I am so sorry that your relationship was toxic and that you got very close to suicide, but pleased that you have sought help and found it.  It is times like this that you really know who is willing to stick with you and support you.  Keep positive and cherish every good moment, appreciate those who support you and don’t take notice of those who bring you down.   You have got this.  

[steve25805 114,425]

I too have had my struggles with depression and anxiety. 

My ups and downs affect how I react to things and is a major part of the reason I have taken much more of a backseat around here lately.

But @ABBYPEEGODDESS, there are many good people on this forum who will be there for you if you need to talk to anyone. I know I don't know you very well mostly because I don't interact much here anymore, which is part of how I protect myself mental health wise. But I would always come through for anyone suffering an emotional or psychological crisis. You are welcome to message me if it would help anytime. 

Welcome back, anyway.

[steamlover6 688]

My heart goes out to you Abby; stay strong, build on the things you know and love, and especially at this time, the feelings of your friends, admirers and supporters here...