My first experience with pee was in 2003 is was 43 years old and just had surgery for Prostate Cancer. One of the side effects of Prostate surgery is loss of bladder control. I would not only pee my bed but also my pants. I discovered that I enjoyed the feeling of trying to hold my piss till the last moment. In retrospect I may have felt controlling my pee was at least something I could control at that moment in my life. It was during that time I discovered my joy of desperation pee. Over the years I started experimenting with different things concerning pee. I love peeing in naughty places, peeing my pants and drinking my own pee. I have given myself a golden shower and hope one day to find a female pee friend.