Coming to terms

[steve25805 121,106]

I am a good, decent Christian woman in my late 40s, married for 25 years and only ever had sex with my husband. I stayed a virgin for him until we were wed. I am a regular churchgoer with a very conservative reputation. I guess most people would think of me as being a bit straight-laced and conventional, which I suppose I am in many ways. I do a lot of charitable work with my church and have a mighty fine reputation as a good, clean-living, fine and upstanding citizen.

But I have a guilty secret. You see, peeing has turned me on for as long as I can remember. Not so much the golden showers side of things, though I have fantasised about that, but more the notion of just peeing anywhere really naughty.

For a long time I was in total denial about these desires, unable to reconcile my faith with these sexual yearnings. I kind of thought of this as some sick perversion within me, an evil put inside my mind by the devil as a constant temptation away from the path of righteousness. I tried to avoid thinking about such things at all, until inevitably, sooner or later, I found myself giving in to guilty pleasures and masturbating whilst fantasising about peeing on the floor or something. Afterwards I always felt intense guilt and prayed to God for forgivenness.

Since the arrival of the internet, though, I have grown a lot less uptight. The anonymity of the net is ideal for allowing like-minded people to link up. And, via fetish forums which I first looked at out of curiosity more than anything but ultimately joined, I realised that there are a lot of others like me out there. Not only that, some of them are clearly decent and fine people, whose only "crime" is to enjoy being peed on or something. It got me thinking - would God condemn someone for this when in all other respects they were truly good people? And what harm are they doing? And when I thought about it, there is nothing in the Holy Bible itself that suggests that peeing for pleasure is in any way evil. So I kind of got came to understand that maybe it was ok with God.

And my interest in naughty peeing? Well, to be honest I really don't think God would approve of soiling other people's property - least not without their approval - but peeing on my own stuff should be ok.

So I suppose the internet, and urine fetish forums, helped me to come to terms with my inner urges and make my peace with God over them. But like I said, I am pretty straight-laced so all this was just fantasy. In reality, however much I fantasised about peeing on the carpet or whatever, I had never done anything naughtier than peeing in the shower whilst taking one. That was until just before I started writing this, that is.

You see, my kids have grown up and left home now, and my husband is away on church business for a couple of days, so I was home alone in my bedroom, reading my favourite erotic story sites, especially several new stories I found featuring girls peeing in naughty places. And I was getting hornier and hornier as my need for a pee grew ever stronger. And, for the first time ever, I seriously considered actually doing it - peeing somewhere that is just so totally wrong! And the thought that I might actually do it was itself seriously exciting me, as I felt a great sense of lustful anticipation. I stripped naked as I read to add to the sexiness, and to make it easier to touch myself.

Finally, as I read a story about a girl peeing against her bedroom wall, I could wait no longer and decided that I was going to do something like this too. So I got up off my bed, stood beside it facing the wall with my legs slightly apart and my hands on my hips, as I thrust my pelvis forward. And basically I just peed right there against my own bedroom wall, swaying my hips to cover as much of it as possible. My golden pee splashed loudly against the wallpaper, before flowing down the wall to form an ever growing puddle upon the carpet at it's base. And it sure was such a total thrill! A part of me couldn't believe that I was actually doing this. It was so utterly naughty and wrong, and yet so very nice. By the time I had finished, it really took very little to make myself climax too where I stood.

Then I admired my handiwork - large pee stains all over the wallpaper and puddles of pee on the carpet at the base of the wall. I revelled in the memory of what I had just done for a moment, astonished that I of all people had actually done such a thing. Then I got back to my laptop and started to type this letter. The pee-stained wallpaper and wet carpet are still there as I look at them right now.

[pee2poop 110]

Well written! As a fellow Christian woman with fantasies of people peeing, it has to have some truth to it as you wrote it so beautifully and the  peace with god  part seems legit. 

[glad1 2,596]

I'm surprised I never read this story or maybe it's been so long that I've forgotten. But it brought to mind a few conversations I had on hiking trails some years back. I was raised in the Christian faith and still follow most all its teachings, but I'd sometimes wonder how far I strayed from the path.

Over the course of literally hundreds of hikes, I've gotten to talk about most everything under the sun with my trail partners. More often than one might expect, the topic turned to philosophy and religion. I suppose spending hours out in nature encouraged thoughts of spirituality. And, often in the middle of those lengthy talks, one or both of us needed to pee. 

I've found that after a couple hikes, we've gotten comfortable enough with one another that the situation is seldom awkward. And, if it is, we just walk a few steps further away. At the same time, I've noticed that most women, or at least most outdoorsy women are at least a bit what I'd call "pee curious" and a few obviously shared our interest.

But, what I didn't expect was one minute having a deep conversation with a woman on matters of faith and the next she's watering the ground not more than ten feet from me and making no attempt to hide that she enjoyed this. This time I was the one who was curious and, when she was finished, I asked how she could reconcile her behaviour. 

Without hesitation she earnestly explained, "The very same Lord that gave us the ability to seek out good and experience pleasure was the same who saw to it that we needed to urinate. Seeing how it was His will, it should never be considered sinful." From that point on, I was good with that.

[Alfresco 10,989]

I also don’t remember reading this story, but enjoyed reading it today.   

At risk of derailing this story thread onto a theological debate, I would agree with @glad1’s observations and discussions with fellow hikers that enjoyment of peeing and the Christian faith don’t have to be mutually exclusive.  

I am a Christian, although I don’t go to church regularly, I do still have my beliefs and I do pray to God.   As anyone who has read my posts knows, I love peeing in naughty places, love seeing women peeing and love stories, pictures and videos of ladies peeing outside or in naughty places.  

My feeling on peeing outside is that God made us and all animals with peeing as a natural function and toilets are only a relatively recent human invention.  It is only a society imposed convention that says we shouldn’t pee in public or outside and that is not doing anything wrong.

Peeing on property that belongs to others without permission and where it would cause them inconvenience, distress or cost is really the only area where I would find conflict and I steer clear of that - although I don’t mind peeing on commercial property.

As for appreciating others peeing, well everyone is part of God’s creation and appreciating them is no different to appreciating lakes, mountains, animals, the oceans or any other part of creation.   I wouldn’t go as far as committing adultery, but as my wife knows that I enjoy seeing other women pee and accepts it, I don’t feel that  I am doing anything against her either.

[steve25805 121,106]

On 10/12/2023 at 7:22 AM, pee2poop said:

Well written! As a fellow Christian woman with fantasies of people peeing, it has to have some truth to it as you wrote it so beautifully and the  peace with god  part seems legit. 

I am not a practicing Christian myself nor am I really a true believer, though I do sometimes look at the state of humanity and the planet we live on, the ways things are going, and I do occasionally wonder if we are actually in a biblical end of days scenario right now. I did attend sunday school as a kid, and have in more recent years indulged Christians in long discussions about their faith, both online and offine.

I have conversed with many devout Christians of various types over the years, and have debated with some of the more politicised ones in America on politics forums.

I have drawn upon all this in writing the above tale. I have tried to put myself in the mindset of a devout believer whilst not myself being one, though someone who has often spoken to some, and who is open-minded and open to spiritual messages and thinking. I do sometimes wonder if there really is a Christian truth that I might be vaguely sensing. Yet at others I dismiss that as nonsense. If anything truly divine were to touch my soul I am ready for it, but I dont know what the truth is right now. I do respect Christians for their faith, though.

I have however long believed in things that are not really part of Christian teaching. I do for example believe in reincarnation and the notion of karma. I guess when it comes to the salvation of my soul as Christians might see it, I have potential but am still very much a work in progress.